|| Lovely || bluelock x f! reader

prologue

She was born with an incurable disease due to fatal baby rituals and her overly religious family, who always prayed for her and told her that god would cure her soon

But it was too late now, as she died on her bed, a week before her sweet sixteenth, the girl who was already sick gravely months ago

That was your first life

You were confused as the sight of being held in the arms of a different woman after finding yourself in a warm comforting darkness right after your death

Suddenly her smile turned into a frown as a lady took you away and put you in a different room, checking on your health currently as the doctor sighed, putting you in a plastic tube before drifting off to sleep

That was when you found you also had a disease similiar to your past life though this time, you were being treated in the hospital

Though you were glad you could be treated this time after calming down on the fact that you just reincarnated

But you later regret, as you spent your entire life in the hospital, not to mention they spoke a whole different language

So you took the opportunity to learn Spanish

Your parents did love you dearly though they couldn't express it properly enough, adopting a daughter in the process since you were the one who recommended it to them, but the adopted child didn't seem so fond lf you, though you loved to have a sibling but it was alright

It was a very boring and lonely life, before dying in your sleep a month before your 16th birthday

You became shocked as you found yourself in a basket with a woman, presumably your mother and putting you near a old church's door before running off..

Though when the pastor found you, they were actually really nice people, and you were born with a healthy body this time, so you were the happiest in this third time

Always helping out the unfortunate people and giving them needed shelter, you were rumoured as a person satisfied with their life, very humble and along with your looks, where you were the most beautiful woman in the village

Of course it was a English town

Though you were aiming to have a normal life and try to fall in love soon, it was cut short with a new nun in town, where you were accused of witchcraft and burnt to death days before your 16th...

Your eyes suddenly opened as cries of people woke you up, a woman holding onto you, who was your mother as her smile towards you faded away as her eyes turned lifeless

In your 4th life, your were born in Germany as it seemed that you were born in the times of the war

You worked your life commiting to help out the injured soldiers ever since you were 7 while you spent the years before in a orphanage

Of course, your death happened because you refused to a highly respected general's advances and humiliated to death by being hanged publicly, while men were free to rip off your clothing in the process

and that was a day before you turned 16

You could never bring up yourself to say it but now you hated life at this point

On your 5th life, you were surprisingly cradled in the arms of a frail women, your fifth mother which you could sense

The features that she had gave off seemed similiar to the face of the Japanese soldiers you seen before in your previous life

And you were correct, born in a peaceful life this time and a healthy health overall

Your parents were very loving and taught you to be polite and etiquette

Your family was not wealthy but very respected in society as your father was, well a general, but a very loving and caring one...

You chose to follow your father to war and became an important figure to the army, also one of the youngest generals

But Your life later came to an end as one of your trusted comrades betrayed you and killed in an ambush, the number of them overpowered your group though you fought them off, but lost hope when you saw the heads of your father rolling on the ground, a firing arrow met your heart before you died holding your father's severed head...

You felt empty as your next life just continued and on and on

First 50 ones made you insane, but you simply started accepting it after your 100th

And eventually you lost count, You kept on spawning in different parts of the world as the timeline simply kept on going forward, seemingly the moment you died, somewhere you were born right after, so your death date from your previous life in your other life was your birthday

not that You ever managed to turn 16 so when you turned 15, you always mentally prepped yourself for the death that would be awaiting for you soon

You lost count but you could call yourself miss universe now because you knew knowledge about almost everything, musical instruments, poetry, dances, sports, and name it all, pretty sure you knew the language of almost every nation existing on the earth right now

And the culture and language of other small countries that don't exist on this day anymore

Right now, probably your 999th life right now as it was said so in the form of a ancient text on your right wrist or else you would've lost count of your reincarnations

Sometimes you really just spawned in times way back than your previous life, so you just experience the start of mankind aswell

And as much as you were curious about love, it was either the start of a very brutal death awaiting or them becoming your weakness

so you gave up about that idea around you 700th life, where your crush turned out to be stalked by another lady and that lady gave you a very slow but extremely painful death, though it was huge torture, the other deaths before were also incomparable aswell and couldn't be compared

You woke up after your previous life, remembering the sight of the adorable back then...pablo right? he wanted to be a striker, a really sweet child indeed...

You were born in the arms of a woman as she starting speaking in Japanese, either a peaceful start or a torturing one,

Completely giving up on life itself, you already gave up on life, awaiting for your end already as your grew up in a Wealthy family, though you were undeniably very elegant and a beauty that no one could deny to

You were incredibly known as quite the sloth in the family

never attending family gatherings, homeschooled and always locked inside your room

taking the opportunity to completely rest in this life and never ever lifting a single finger, just eat, sleep, go sightseeing for a bit and sleeping back again

It was just that, though you weren't expecting on the things that were waiting for you later

that would change everything...