Her thoughts turn to a Masterpiece

KID > GROWN UP

People told me not to
But I chose to push it through
It is hard
But I know I can make it
I believe in my self
I have confidence

Or just what I thought?

I found myself laying
Feeling lifeless but breathing
Is it even possible?

Of course.

That's how human life works

At first it is pure light and happiness
You only wish for a sweet candy and colorful toys
But as you grow up
And starts seeing and understanding what world really is

There's no color
There's no happiness

Everything is dark
Everyone is dull

There's no light nor happiness
Nothing more sweet and colorful

Who would have thought world is like this?
When I was a kid everything is just seem so fun and fine

I only cry cause I can't buy what I want
I only sleep when I'm tired
I will just call my mom when I need something and I can't reach or find it
I will just go to my dad to asked him buy this and that

But now,

Now that I'm a grown up
It made me realize that
Being a kid is much better, easier, safest place and phase of human life.

Now
Unlike before

I cry cause I everything feels heavy
I don't sleep anymore like how I used to when I was a kid
I can't just rest and feel the warmth of the sunlight
I have to move my ass to buy my needs
I can't just call my mom when I need something cause she will just say, " You are old enough. Stop depending on me and just move your body "
I can't just go to my father and asked him to buy something for me cause he will just say, " Be independent. Stood up for your self, you're not a kid anymore "

It is depressing
It is tiring
It is sad
It is stressful
It is draining

I am depress
I am tired
I am lonely
I am stress
I am drained

And

I am done
And I just want to be gone.