Unintented

Chap 1

Is the universe still rotating??Why can't it just end!!why can't the world just end??What have I done so bad for this!!! Plz god make it as just a dream...because it hurts. It hurts like... oh god I can't just explain this and that is sooo annoying !
      She just turned to me with a giggle and waited for my reaction for her surprise.I should give a heartfelt smile. Oh god !! I should do it for her!! My lips aren't responding. How could I possibly smile here?? I just give a smile with a thumpsup. That is the most I can give now.
I just took a quick turn as they hug each other.Walking down is a better idea.
    The boy I love since we are as short as a plant. I shouldn't have built such a stupid feelings for him! How could I possibly not think about the time that he could like someone. I just love him without thinking anything!!! Without knowing that maybe one day he will love someone!! I didn't let my heart to know the realisation that maybe I can't have him. It's just a one sided !! He never knew !! I repeat to my mind,heart and to my body 'He Never Knew'. And I should be happy for her !Oh god why is it soo painful maybe I am too small for this kind of pain. I can't even control my tears.
I need to make my face clear before anyone could find that I am crying!

I walked down to the washroom to wash my face.As water came contact with my body my tears start rolling down my cheek.Damn !! Why can't it just stop. I slapped water to my face a couple of times.
'It is just fine and it will be the last time I cry for this' I just talked to myself and walk outside.
     'Heyyy Ella !!!! Arghh...You are standing here!! Everyone is waiting for you to take a family photo.Come!!' Ann just shouted while running to me. We ran to the hall to see everyone taking their position for a photo.

        ' There she is ' one of my aunt shouted. 'Where have you been??' Mom asked silently with a warning look. 'Washroom'.
'All the kids can take the front position!'
Photographer said looking at me.
'Am I a kid?'  I said walking to the front. 'Hey you haven't said anything about my surprise'Lia whispered to me while standing beside me. My whole body shook from hearing that. Amelia is my  my fav cousin. She is the one I love the most in my whole family. We are like partners in crime or whatever. I call her Lia. She has a beautiful smile, her eyes always twinkles, her lips are too soft and pink. And also have a way to talk to others unlike me.I am not that pleasant in maintaining a conversation.I can't make jokes or keep up with a fabulous dialogues. That's why I became an outcast everywhere.she is just  a couple of months younger than me.She is a pet for everyone and also known as most annoying. May be i am not the character of any story and it feel so painful to say that she like Aaron. The boy I thought would be someone to me. We all are cousins. And here is the family gathering going on.
   Lia always says that she has a feeling for a boy but never told me the person and that would be a small surprise for me but the thing is it is not as small as expected . and she just give me that by asking him out infront of me that he gladly accept. I never talked about my feelings to anyone. maybe that's my fault. And that's for good now he likes someone. I just want to murder my feelings.
    'So Aaron' I say to her with a smile to hide my emotions. ' yes yes and yes' she giggles. And the next second I saw Aaron standing next to her as everyone is adjusting their position to take photo. He is smiling with his eyes too. I can feel his happiness around her.
' Okay  one two and three ' the camera clicks and I saw Aaron holding Lia's hand.
My whole world breakdown in front of me.I should move on. For next click I smile to my fullest.
   After finishing with the clicks everyone just spread out for their desserts. Maybe I should grab an ice cream to cool this off. Chocolate ice creams are the best for healing. I love it as much as I love myself.
       'Ella!' I just don't need to turn to see the person calling my name, it's Aaron! I hold tight my breath and calm myself. My stomach is becoming too light and my hands are getting cold.He has this power over me and that feel so awkward for me now. 'Yes?'  I asked without turning.He ran towards me.
  'So..'
'Soo??'
' just keep it as secret okay?'
I just looked up for his face and my heart is swelling
'what'  and it came as mouthing. My voice just died.
'Me and Lia'
He is asking me to kept his relation a secret. Okay fine. This shall too pass.
' oh ! Okay ' by saying that I walked away from him without a second look.