As you know my name is Amber Keegan. I have dirty blond hair. I'm quite tall, I am 5'10. Im obsessed with so many bands and band members that is all I talk about. Also I love youtubers . I'm not really a girly girl. Even when I was younger I would play video games with my dad and rip off the heads of Barbie dolls. I rather talk about bands and video games than makeup and clothes. I don't really know anything about self. I'm always following the crowd and what is people are always doing I'll do. If most of the girls are good at swimming I'll pretend I'm good at swimming so I don't look like an outcast. I never really had Time with my self I'm always with my friends. I wonder who I am.
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Beep, beep, beep, beep. " ugh 2nd week of school and I'm already hating my alarm clock." I said as I slowly got out of bed. " Amber breakfast is ready!" Yelled my mom. I got my phone and ran downstairs. In my usual daily routine I would eat breakfast, watch Dan and Phil, and never talk to my mom. I love my mom, trust me. But when I'm watching Dan and Phil you better leave me alone and let me fangirl. " Amber stop playing on your phone and eat. The bus will be here in 20 minutes, and we all know how slow you are in the mornings." Said my mom in a stern voice. I just looked at her and rolled my eyes. Of course like every mom she gave me the look. I sighed and put down my phone and got ready for school. I went to the bathroom and got dressed and shiz. I looked at myself in the mirror and kept having these past thoughts. I kept thinking to myself who am I. I'm so fake, I'm not acting like myself...... I'm always acting like other people. What am I good at. I kept thinking to myself and I ended up thinking about death and life. I was just about to think about my sexuality until the bus horn honked. I ran downstairs and got my stuff. I kissed my mom goodbye and left. " ID please" said the bus driver. He always looked so tired and annoyed. I showed him my ID and sat way in the back. As always I sat with no one. I was fine with that too. I looked to my left to see a girl. " man she looks cute" I thought. She looked at me and stared at me. " crap she saw me looking at her" I thought I quickly turned away blushing. I don't know what's wrong with me....... I keep looking at her. I never felt like this before.
