Unlucky in LOVE <\3

Pov- You are not meant to be loved

First of all a question for you all.. Why do some people meet when they are not meant to be together? It's a story of attachment... And how it hurts when the other person don't even recognise you.. You misunderstood him..
Here the protagonist of the story started admiring one of her friends... The friend of hers helped her in every situation but she misunderstood that he had the same feelings for her as well.. This is the feeling she had of being unlucky in love.

~It has been 2 days since I got a message from you.
Like it was all okay yesterday as you texted me the night of the day before yesterday that I'll be busy tomorrow so maybe we'll not be able to talk but in the night I'll text you as soon as I'll be free.
You never go back on your word.. This thing I know about you very well. I just don't know why am I getting a bad feeling about all this you never ever remained silent for this much time. This is unlike you. But in a corner of my mind I'm still thinking that I'm attached to you a lot that's why maybe I'm just overthinking it.
But this is not a joke c'mon I'm genuinely scared. You said you'll come to work today... But you were absent.
I didn't find something fishy as I know that you must've slept very late the night and couldn't wake up early to attend the office. I was preparing all the news of office today to tell you and then eventually when we could've burst into laughter.... But things doesn't go planned right?
I texted you yesterday night I texted you today... But you haven't even seen my messages. One part of my mind is constantly trying to console me up by saying again and again that you may be busy doing some work or so.... But for 2 continuous days? Are you sure about that??
I know I'm always overthinking and this may be one of my stupid thoughts but still sometimes my overthinking mentally prepares me for the future damage which is preparing itself to turn my life into ruins. Every now and then my phone gets me to your chat inbox which is empty... Just some of my texts in it... Hii are you asleep... Good night we'll talk later.... Heyyy you awake?..... You busy somewhere??
These texts may seem very normal but in reality they're not. They're expressing something more.... They're expressing something beyond the words.
When I came back from work then my thoughts started eating me up. Because in office I was pretty sure everything was okay and you must've missed today cuz of your laziness (I'm not calling you lazy but you may have slept at 3 or 4 in the night)
I'm feeling something else right now I just don't know what it is?? It's just that I'm worried about you very much... Maybe I'm insecure... Maybe I'm very possesive of my one and only friend whom I could trust without any tension.
Currently I'm watching a comedy TV show still I'm feeling like not laughing aur even smiling at it.... Because all I could think about is you... I'm tensed about you.... I'm very very very worried about you.
I know if you were here you would have not liked me being tensed about you... I'm trying my best to distract my mind but you are the only one I could think about right now. I just couldn't believe what would've happened if you broke the bond with me that day... I couldn't even imagine 2 days without talking to you..
One part of my mind is still framing it that may be something bad had happened..... I just don't want to think about it but what else could I do I just can't concentrate... on anything I do.

Pleasee if you can hear the thoughts of my inner self...atleast drop a text stating that you're busy for some days and that EVERYTHING'S FINE which will stop my overthinking.
I request you please hear my inner self how are you everything's fine?? you're okayyy?? you're not having a bad time ?? I've to be with you if you have one... I'm always on your side please text me ASAP telling about how your day went... Did you have enough sleep??... What happened to that rival of yours..Moron..huhh
Pleasee return.. As fast as you can.
I want to talk to you. It'll be fine if I'll not say anything more right now..
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We talked. My overthinking ends. I came to all my senses. You didn't even think about me. You were not aware of the fact that I was missing you a lot. That I was only thinking about you. I texted you on whatsApp thinking maybe you were present there. Lastly we talked on snapchat right when everything was okay. Coming back when I texted you on whatsApp you said that you are not using your phone much and that you'll talk at work only. All care and tension...all feelings shattered just as someone broke a glass door with a bat. You are so important to me. You mean so much to me. I just don't know why in every conversation I take your name.
I just wanted recognition. I wanted to feel how it is to be "the one" for someone. How it feels if someone respects your feelings and think about you 24×7. How it is if someone loves you just the way you love them? The only reason why I believe in love is the way I love.. Is the way I admire... Is the way how I made another world of my love of all the lofty aspirations I want to achieve with the love of my life. Do someone like that even exist? I was never the first choice of anyone right? I know some boys proposed me because they wanted a girlfriend. Not more. It was not like that novel romance it was not like the fictional romance I'm starving for.
I was a little too emotionally attached with him. I just thought he'll understand me... My inner thoughts as if he had a magic spell to read someone's mind and heart. I always say I'm a stupid moron and I am.
You know what I want right now? To just snatch my heart out of my chest. I don't want to store any feelings for anyone... You know what the truth isss I'm not meant for love... I'm not meant to have a soulmate.... I'm not meant to have a person who understands me. It's not that my standards are high.... I don't want to be in a relationship... I hate relationships... I don't want to stay.. I don't want to be that one good girl who's loyal trustworthy and all... I just want to run away from the cursed world. I say that I want to disappear whereas in reality I just want to be found. It's the irony... It's the irony of the world that love falls only in those people's hands for whom it doesn't matter. Today I called off the fire of love... Today the fuel for the fire of love in my heart has ended. I can't bear any more crushing of my one and only heart. Already it's in pieces I don't want it to be shattered more.
Love is not meant for me! I am unlucky in love!! I know many people are!!! I hate love!!!! Because I was never THE ONE.

Thanks for reading it all. I hope you enjoyed it. If you did then please let me know should I continue this story only or I should jump on to the next genre?✨