The Lost Four

A Turn of Events.

"What the fuck is your problem" trailing Alex as he walks towards his car both of us furious. Leave me alone Cyerene" He opened his car door almost stepping in. I put my hand on the car door to prevent him from shutting the door and ironically me. "You don't get to be mad because frankly, I don't understand why you're mad" he's now staring directly at me. The door divides us as silence becomes suffocating. "Just tell me I truly don't understand why you're acting like this" Cutting the silence, my tone softens.

"Look Cy it's nothing you did" he softly states as he hangs his head no longer looking at me. "Then why do I feel like you just woke up mad at me out of nowhere" I say crossing my arms over my chest I wait for his explanation. He sighs and leans backward onto the car. "Ever since I got back and saw you I realized how much I missed hanging out with you, your laugh, smile, I could always talk to you" Having an idea of where he's getting at, I start to wonder if this conversation is actually happening.

"I did more thinking and came to the realization that you brought up feelings inside me and I wanted more, I want you" Looking up at me I take a step back. Completely speechless my mind starts running around trying to gather words to say. "This cannot be happening," I say slightly above a whisper. "I know it sounds insane but when you talked about your date I got jealous" he frantically starts splurring out more, trying to justify his actions.

"Alex stop" I finally get out and it's enough to make him stop talking. "You're my best friend's brother we will never happen" I start to turn to go back into the house. He grabs my arm stopping me in my tracks. "Tell me you've never had feelings for me and then I'll leave you alone and we'll never speak of this again" Thinking for a second, yes I've had feelings for him in the past but not anymore. I moved past that crush, he was older than me. "I don't have feelings for you Alex anymore but one day you will find someone just for you" I free my arm from his hold and I start walking towards the house. "Just know I'll be here waiting if you change your mind Cy" he calls out behind me.

I get into the house and there is a car pull off behind me. Closing the front door I head towards the kitchen. Ri's in the kitchen still eating her giant cookies but her mom must've left. "What's going on between you and my brother" She has a curious look flooding her face. "He fessed up and said he likes me" thinking there's no point in hiding it. "Damn, well how'd that go," she says continuing to eat her cookies and I walk towards my untouched one. "I rejected him" I plainly explained although there is more to my decision.

I'm just scared of losing two important people in my life over a childhood crush. "How are you so chill about this" I asked Ri. "I kinda figured he liked you when I mentioned you were coming over on Friday, his face lit up like a kid at a candy store" A tight knot formed in my stomach and I felt extremely guilty. "I just don't like him in that way anymore" Taking a bite of my cookie, I don't know if I can finish it all. "Anymore" I look at her and her eyebrow is raised. "A couple years ago I had a crush on him but it was just a childhood one" explaining my side I just hope she understands.

"You're not mad are you" she just laughs at me. After calming down a bit she smiles. "Why would I be mad at you, if anything I'm mad at Alex for being an immature ass", the whole conversation with Alex replays in my head all over again. "You don't have to feel guilty about not reciprocating his feelings and you don't have to explain why, I understand" Putting her hand on my shoulder she gets up. Feeling slightly less tense I sigh and take a bite of my cookie. My phone pings in my pocket and I go to check it.

*Xandri*: How's it going, Princess?

I immediately started smiling, and I found a new level of excitement when talking to Xandri.

*Cyerene*: I'm good, Xandri how about you?

*Xandri*: I'll be much better when I get to see you. Blushing a little my cheeks start hurting from smiling so hard.