~Blurry life ~

~Blurry life~ Me.Myself and I

(P.S. Play the music while you're reading)

Hi.
My name is Megan grace.
14 yrs.old.
Hmm... hopeless romantic.
Abandoned.
...............
Afraid to love someone again.
You know the thing about me is,I let people hurt my feelings and i'm just here___accepting the word PAIN
I'm so dumb right ?
I let people...
Turn me into a statue.
Restart my mind.
Deliever their aura of love but then hurt me again.
My life is like a camera,it depends on me if I want to focus on beautiful things or just leave it hanging and undiscovered. If i'm tired,I will just turn everything off and turn it back on again if I feel too. Patience they say.. Patience...of getting what you really want to achieve.For me,I just want happiness...

I'm the girl who is infront of a door full of happiness but I still don't open it,know why? It's because i'm not ready yet.I still feel the explosion of my heart beat by beat ..I don't even expect that my life will get better if I enter the gate of happiness;I don't expect that my happiness will radiate energy and explode like supernova.I'm sorry.. I'm just like this... Speechless and it feels like i'm inside of a box,fitting myself and don't wanna go out because I'm afriad to get wrapped with hurtful words..words that will turn into wounds....and will never fade away.
Actually there are 3 things in life that can destroy a person.
The 3 things are :
-ANGER
-PRIDE
-UNFORGIVENESS
But for me,only pain can destroy me.My life is so anonymous that even the one who is carrying it can't rely on positive things.My Blurry life is full of negative thoughts and memories.Symptoms of depression...I guess...

I still believe that I will_ be happy and open the gate of happiness in the right time.I still have faith and I still adore myself.I'm still recovering.

"BEING HAPPY DOESN'T MEAN THAT EVERYTHING IS PERFECT.IT MEANS THAT YOU'VE DECIDED TO LOOK BEYOND THE IMPERFECTIONS"

ONE DAY
I will get out of my box and start to discover new things and run through my journey again.
I will love someone.
I will learn from my mistakes.
I will take a risk.
Be patient.

And that ONE DAY.
STARTS NOW.

-MEGAN