Tired

The day was once glowy
Glowy like no other
Everything was fine
Nothing was wrong

Now you see what's wrong
You see I am tired
But tired is an understatement
I am exhausted

Exhausted of everything
The light
The dark
The climbs
The lows

I want to see it in a different light
But there is none
No light in sight

A light I have never seen before
A light that shines
Shines so bright
Brighter than no other

I began to see
See what I knew was important
Important to me
Not anyone else
I was concerned
Concerned for my safety

What was I thinking
Why did I fall for this
This Terrible trap

What was I thinking
Thinking I could have it better

What was I thinking
Why did I think you were better
Better for me than myself
I gave my all to you
All of it and you just broke it
Broke it in two

What was I thinking
Thinking it would get better
Thinking you would finally see me
Not see me for what you wanted
I wanted you to see what I was thinking
Wanted you to know what I knew
Letting you into my brain
All for you to just crumble it up
Throw it in the trash
Tuck it behind a dumpster

I am tired
Tired of trying to please you
Tired of trying to be your friend
I gave up when all you cared for was throwing me in the trash
I gave up on you
That is all you must know

You ended it all when you said no
When you said bye
When you never looked up
And now you are gone
Gone forever
And I
I am no longer tired