Avery Sturniolo ♡

well im stupid..

⚠️TW⚠️

Me and Nick woke up in my bed. He woke up first and made me some pancakes for breakfast. As i ate he went downstairs to take to Matt and Chris

Nicks pov:
Im worried avas gonna do something bad like... hurt herself again shes going down into a depression she has like 29 unopened text from her girl friend and i know it only happened last night but i also know that shes gonna hurt her self i have to tell this to Chris and Matt to make sure I'm not crazy. I walk downstairs Chris eating cereal and Matt on his phone "guys im worried about ava" i say nervously "me too" Matt said "what do you mean" Chris said being mindless "what we mean is she may cut herself or worse she doesnt take things fairy well plus this traumatizing event" Matt says as he looks at Chris "well just got to watch her like a hawk make sure no long sleeves or anything" says Chris "its not that simple 99% of what she wears is hoodies" i tell Chris "well maybe well figure it out later but shes up there alone right now" Chris ponits out "fuck" i say as i rush up stairs.

Avas pov:
Nick comes barging into my room i dont really care i like his company. "Heyy wanna watch a movie or something" Nick says but something about the way hes acting is a little werid i know he thinks im gonna hurt myself and i am but this time im gonna hide it better i cant hurt them again. "Sure" i reply. I pick the movie i chose inside out its such a comforting movie i dont know how considering its kinda depressing. I usually eat snacks when watching a movie hut have no motivation to eat i just wanna strave my self cus eating takes to much but at the same time i dont want Nick to notice and to think somethings up so i eat like half a bag of popcorn and just pretend breakfast filled me up not the smartest plan. The man that assaulted me said shit like how i was ugly to fat and no boy would ever want me and he was doing me a favor by fucking me i feel like thats a huge lie but he is right about me being fat so i guess during this all girls come out "better" after a rape so ill make my self strong and hot i must sound dumb right now but i really just want whats best for me so no one feels so sorry for me cus the whole school knows so im not coming back from this heading to school being the "emo" kid but instead the kid who thrived.
After the movies done i go downstairs and end up falling asleep on the couch my 3 brothers are in the kitchen when i wake up i notice my phone that dropped during my sleep i go to pick it up and my sleeve rolls up to my elbow at least i didnt notice for a good bit until i hear matts voice "avery rose sturniolo what did u do." Im confused at first then realize me sleeve is all the way up fuck how could i be so stupid such a idiotic move. When i notice i immediately get up and try to run out the house to avoid all the tears and my brothers disappointed faces or at least post pone it because i have to go back. I quickly get ip grabing my phone with me aiming for the stairs that go to the front door Chris must have had an idea of what i was doing and started to chase after me but i ran out the door like sonic or something i just ran i didnt know where i was running to i wanted to see kaya but i felt like she would be mad at me i ran to my old school sat on a rock and cried im losing my girlfriend im disappointing my brothers i wanna just die i feel like a burden to everyone got i hate my self im so stupid all the time all i had to do was text Matt to pick me up and none of this would have happened but no my house was only 10 minutes away so i thought i would be safe i should have been safe i shouldnt have to live in a world where girls cant walk home 10 minutes to there house at night or in day i was over thinking and crying when a familiar van pulled up it was Matts he knew where i would cry at my school and he would always pick me up from that spot he stepped out the car slowly approaching me like im a deer about to run "ava please get in the car" Matt said calm i knew he was trying not to alarm me. I figured i would rather get this over with i got in the car and Nick cleaned up my cuts in the back seat i cuddled on to him until we got home we went upstairs and they sat me on the couch "we know u dont want to here this long thing about how it hurts you and blah blah so i wont sit here and tell you that what i will tell you is your not just hurting yourself ur hurting us kaya, mom and dad we just dont want you dead avery your not useless" Matt said kneeling down and looking in to my eyes i started to cry again and Nick just took me to my room to sleep i was supposed to have one of my weekly call with mum and dad today but i wasnt feel up for it so i told Nick to text them and tell them.

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