THIS IS THE FIRST AND THE LAST TIME I WILL WRITE ABOUT ME . MY NAME IS LAKASH MAHARJAN AND RIGHT NOW I AM 22 . BUT LETS START THIS STORY FROM THE VERY FIRST .
I WAS BORN ON A POOR FAMILY . SO POOR WE COULD NOT AFFORD FOOD . MY DAD WHO USED TO WORK FOR A STATIONARY SELLINGS SOCKS WAS A VERY HARD WORKING PERSON. LATER ON LIFE AT AGE 50 HE PASSED AWAY BUT WAS SUCCESSFUL.
AND THERE STARTS THE PROBLEMS . ONCES A MAN IS SUCCESSFUL HE HAS MANY RESPONSIBILITIES. AND ONCES THAT MAN PASSES AWAY ALL RESPONSIBILITY TRANSFERS TO THE CHILD .
THIS STORY STARTS IN A VERY SIMPLE MANNER . I WAS A CHILD WHO LOVED BEING A CHILD . I HAVE BEEN VERY STUBBORN SINCE I WAS A CHILD . IF I WANT SONETHING I WOULD GET IT ANYHOW .
I GOT EVERYTHING I WANTED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE . A GOOD BIKE A GOOD LAPTOP A GOOD PHONE A GOOD HOME A GOOD ROOM . EVEN 2 DOGS. BUT ONE IMPORTANT THING I WAS MISSING WAS DAD.
LIKE IN MOST NORMAL FAMILY I AS A GUY NEVER UNDERSTOOD MY FATHER. EVER SINCE I WAS A KID HE NEVER LET ME USE MONEY . HE USED TO SAY DO YOU THINK I AM POOR? .
AS A CHILD I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS REALLY POOR .I STILL SAVE UP ALL MY MONEY TILL THIS DAY . MY ENTIRE LIFE I NEVER SHOWED MY DAD WORKS TO ANYONE .
ONCE MY DAD PASSED AWAY THE WHOLE WORLD CAME CRASHING IN MY HEAD . I ACCEPTED IT LIKE A GIFT . BUT EVEN SOMETIMES GIFTS ARE TOO SUPRISEING THAT YOU FORGET WHO YOU ARE AND YOU CHASE THAT GIFT .
MY ENTIRE LIFE I STUDIED TUTITIONS I STUDIED PROBABLY MORE THAN TOPPERS . BUT I ALWAYS USED TO THE LAST ONE IN CLASS .
IN MY LIFE I MADE A LOTS OF FRIENDS AND LOSTS A LOTS . SO I AM VERY CAREFULL IN PICKING UP FRIENDS . I AM VERY CAREFUL IN WHO I TALK TO . I AM A VERY SPECIFIC PERSON . I CAN READ EVERY FACE I SEE .
AFTER DAD PASSED AWAY A LOST ALL MY TEARS . MY TEARS TURNED INTO ANGER TOWARDS THE WORLD . THE ANGER BECAME SO OVER EXCESSIVE IT TURNED INTO OVERTHINKING.
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ALONE GUY WHO WANTED TO CHANGE THE WORLD . MY ONLY DREAM WAS NO ONE SUFFERS LIKE I AM SUFFERING RIGHT NOW . SOMETIMES I WONDER IF THIS BRAIN SWAP WITH SOMEONE CAN THEY TAKE IT OR WILL THEY JUST DIE .
I SUFFERED A LOT IN MY ENTIRE LIFE . GIRLS BECOME A TRAMA . AND EVERYTHING I DO BRINGS FEAR MY MY HEART . AND TO FIGHT ALL THOSE FEARS MY EYES STARTED FIGHTING. MY EYES ARE ALWAYS ANGRY .
ONCE YOU HAVE POWER YOU FORGET WHO ARE AND YOUR EYES DEFEND YOU FROM EVERYTHING . LIKE ANYTIME A PERSON TALKS TO YOU YOUR EYES WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM THEY STOP TALKING .
I HAVE DREAMS BIGGGGGGGGG DREAMMMS . BUT SOMETIMES THEY ARE EVEN TOO BIG FOR ME . LIKE RIGHT NOW I AM ON A BREAK FROM WORK BUT I AM STILL WRITEING HERE .
