Sturniolos Younger Sister 💗

#12 Madi pt 1

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*It is Tuesday morning and it was a holiday so there was no school*

I woke up around 11am. I had no school today because of this holiday or something like that. I still didn't have my fucking phone. I was still mad.

I walked down stairs to Nick sitting on the couch eating an orange. "Finally up" Nick said looking at his orange "shut up Nicolas" I said emphasizing his name. "Damn okay sassy pants. Anyways me, Matt and Chris are going out to film our video for tomorrow. Do you wanna come?" Nick asked "uh no I think I'll just stay home. When u leaving?" I relied "okay and probably in about 15 minutes" Nick said.

15 minutes later Nick Matt and Chris had to leave to film a video. I didn't want to be in it tho I was a little tired. But the main reason is I wanted to go on my phone. I knew they obviously wouldn't take my phone with them. They're not that smart!

I waited around 10 minutes after Leigh left just to make sure they hadn't forgotten anything. I grabbed a water from the fridge and walked up the stairs down the hall to all three my brothers rooms. I didn't know who it was going to be in, but I just decided to check all three, but I also didn't know where they would hide it in a drawer? in the bathroom? In the closet?

I checked Nick's room first and walked around the bed and around his TV and desk. I couldn't see anything straight away. I knew it wouldn't be out in the open. I slowly opened his desk drawer just find batteries, camera stuff, pens, notebooks papers. Etc. next I walked into his bathroom only to open the drawers to find toothbrushes, toiletries, and stuff like that I walked out of his bathroom and into his bedside table. But he didn't have a drawer so it obviously wasn't there.

No luck maybe I should try Chris's? I walked into his room to his bed and his dresser. Nick's room was the biggest since he does all the editing and shit for their YouTube channel. I went to Chris's nightstand he had it drawer, so I slowly opened it just to find a charger, headphones and a book. a book? A book?? he never reads! anyways, no phone. The only other spot I could think of in his room, was his dresser not in his dresser on top of his dresser. Specifically a black box on top of his dresser, which she put his pens birthday cards, papers, stuff like that in there. I slowly took the lid off the box to reveal my phone! My baby! Damn, I really am addicted to my phone. I couldn't even go 24 hours without it. I took it out of the box and placed the lid on top of it, and ran to my room,

I scrolled on Instagram and TikTok, checking my notifications and texting Lizzy about what had happened with my brothers. And why I wasn't responding to her she was worried lol I told her that I'd see her tomorrow at school and that I would get my phone back so I wouldn't have to sneak it.

It had been two hours since The Boys left so I knew they'd be home soon, so I'd have to watch the time and listen carefully. I decided to pop my AirPods in and listen to only one song for about two minutes. I'm guessing in that time span they came home because I didn't hear the walk into the house and up the stairs to my room.

Before I knew it, I could feel something being grabbed from right beside me, and my music being stopped. I looked up just to reveal all my three brothers, standing there, looking at me so mad, like they've never looked at me like this before.

"Oh uh h-hi" I said trembling I knew they were mad. I got scared because I just had a fight with them yesterday. "What the fuck y/n" Chris asked me " you really thought you could sneak your phone!" Matt added on "and you probably went through my fucking room as well!!!!" They both said, half yelling "we took you phone away for a reason!!" Nick said. I could feel my breathing, get a little unsteady, and my heart started racing. I knew I should've snuck my phone. I knew it was bad. "I-I know I'm s-" I got cut off by Chris saying "you're such a loser you can't even go 24 hours without your phone" (guys I know Chris wouldn't say that in real life he's the sweetest soul ever, but this is just for the storyline) " I just wanted to text Lizzy I swear!!" I said " I'm not fucking driving you to school tomorrow y/n you can walk or figure it out I don't care" Matt said looking at me with no emotion. Are you actually joking? It was going to rain tomorrow!? "Don't even think about asking for your phone back tomorrow" nick said well all three of them left the room closing my door.

I started sobbing into my pillow uncontrollably, my breathing getting patchy, and my heart feeling like it's bouncing out of my chest. I couldn't control myself. I hated when my brothers were mad at me. I feel like they were always mad at me. I feel like we were always fighting. I just wanted some peace for a little bit.

Then I could feel it the sudden urge to hurt myself. I didn't want to, but I couldn't control those feelings. They were too powerful. I couldn't talk to any of my brothers because they were so mad at me. I needed them. I needed them the most right now. If I didn't mention already, I am really close to one of my brothers friends Maddi. she's so amazing to me. She's like the sister I never had. I always used to talk to her about my feelings as well. She really helped.

A while ago, my brothers took away my blades and scissors, but recently at school I've been collecting thumbtacks and putting them in my drawer at home. They weren't that sharp, but they were enough to get the job done. I also had my razor, for shaving, and if I broke that I could easily just get a blade out of there.

I walked into my bathroom with my hardcover math book that I was going to use to break the razor. I placed my math book on the counter and grabbed my razor from out of the shower and put it down. I hit the edge of my math book on the razor, and it actually worked! I slowly picked up the blade while shaking. I was still quietly crying, but not as bad now.

I sat down in my empty bathtub, so that if blood started dripping I wouldn't have to clean it up. I ran the blade across my arm over my old scars. It stung like hell. I made some small screeching noises because of the pain. Hopefully my brothers didn't hear that.

I sat there for about 30 minutes staring at my cuts and the ceiling. Why do I deserve to live? I wanted Maddi I wanted my brothers I wanted someone to talk to. That's all I want. That's all I want right now. my brothers always said go to them whenever I felt like hurting myself or whenever I needed someone to talk to about anything.

I got up from out of the bathtub and looked at the blood in there. I didn't feel like splashing water over it, so I just left it there I got a cloth from under my sink and ran it under cold water. I laid the cold cloth on top of my cuts. The cold water helped numb it a little bit, but it still stung like Crazy.

I walked out of my bathroom, and looked at the clock it read 3:30pm it was still early in the day, but I was tired. I didn't care, so I threw on a hoodie and some shorts and laid down to go to sleep.

A/n hey guys, I hope you enjoyed this chapter! This is only a part one, so I'll probably make a part two tonight or tomorrow! Thank you for 1K views!! I actually never thought I'd get there that's insane! Thank you so much. I love you!!!! Take care my loves💕

If you haven't already today, eat some yummy food and stay hydrated💗

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