The Book of Paul Ruebens

Weird dream

((So to start off to begin this I want to say that this dream that I had had the other night was triggered by a flashback I had))

The dream was kind of odd it was like I was watching my younger self through a window or screen and by younger self I mean when the beating started I was like four or five years old, so here's me at 23 in the dream playing looking through a screen or window at my four or five year old self in the sleepover episode of playhouse (the one where he "marries" the fruit salad)

I don't know why it was that episode specifically but it was...

And the way the dream happened it was, different.

So I see my younger self approach the door and I hear Mr window say: "Hey Pee-Wee, someone's outside."

And confusingly, Pee-Wee gets up, and I can see the expression on his face as if to say: "Who'd be at the door? Cuz everyone is already here."

So he approaches the door, and very immediately he wrote character and went into like parent mode or something as soon as he saw my younger self.

He broke character.

The same marks I had on me in real life when I was that age were on my younger self in the dream same black eye, same bruises.

No he's just standing there looking at me for a bit, before Tito and Miss Yvonne came over to check on things. When they saw me, they also broke character.

So then what happened next was, Paul meltdown to my younger self's size, and asked what happened

But I was too scared to speak.

So he gently picked me up, and took me in, and set me down on Chairy

All I remember is seeing my younger self being safely brought into the playhouse. Then everyone went out of character to try and make me feel better.

They even let my younger self sit down with them and had like a bowl of pretzel sticks in it. And things were okay until suddenly the lights on the set  completely went out.

The lights have gone out and the director was trying to get everyone to calm down. Suddenly all you hear is the sound of heavy boots on the floor of the set
And then my younger self begins to scream for help.

By the time the power came back on, the person who had grabbed me was caught by some security people. It was the face of a man I never thought I'd have to see again

The man got taken out. I was so terrified, no I wasn't just scared, I was traumatized.

I crawled to a corner and I sat there just crying I didn't know what to do.

The last thing from the dream that I remember was being covered up in the bed that was on the set (Pee-Wee's bed)

And then sometime later Paul walking over and looking down at me and telling me yourself that he was gonna to care for me.

And then I woke up.

(This is a dream that I had the other night and honestly it still confuses me a little bit)