Beyond Sight

Abuse

July 30, 2008
Mother did something strange today. She said so many things. Horrible things. She saw a book under my bed that was from the basement. She told me that I am disobedient, stupid, and I should be killed by the evil outside. Those words hurt me.

She thinks I don't understand, but I do. The book taught me words and their meanings. It was called a dictionary. She also raised her hand and hit me over and over. I was crying and told her to stop, but she wouldn't. I felt weak and my body ached.

Finally after awhile she went to her room upstairs. I laid on the cold ground and cried for a long time. She has only ever hit me once before and it was when I tried to go outside.
Even then it was one hit not this many. She controls me and I am scared now. She is getting more physical with me. I hope she calms down soon.

August 1, 2008
Mother never said anything about yesterday. Neither did I. I am too scared to to talk to her anymore. I don't know what will happen if I do. She lately has been more tense and I don't know why. She seems to talk to herself about the other world.

Another world?

I knew this place wasn't the only world. Maybe she could take me to this other world because maybe the world we are on is dangerous. I hope we go there. It would be a nice change.

Mother also didn't take away my book surprisingly. She must not care. I am glad she doesn't. I like learning all the words in there. They give me a good feeling and understanding more of my surroundings. I keep this to myself.

Mother would just abuse me again. That word 'abuse' was in the dictionary and it describes perfectly what happened a couple days ago.