The Fall of our Friendship

Mistakes are often committed by people because it symbolizes the imperfection of human beings. Sometimes, it hurts the people around you, but you're the one who is greatly affected because you'll carry it your whole life. You can't undo it. The aftermath of your mistake can destroy even the closest relationship you have. Maybe that's what happened to us. I never really wanted for this to happen. I guess we just really stumbled upon a huge bump in our relationship that we couldn't try to get up and make up even if we wanted to. I just wished we tried harder to mend our relationship because we've come so far. Everyday I think of what happened to us. It hurts but sometimes I think that it's for the better. This is not goodbye. I just want to recount our memories and show you where we went wrong.

It was the first day of junior year and we were all just settling in trying to find our comfort zone and trying to reconnect with our friends when I saw you at the ground floor of the building. I walked by and pretended not to notice you because I felt like somehow, we've changed. The summer we spent apart made me feel like we're all strangers to one another. I head upstairs to our new room and welcomed by our schoolmates with warm hearts. I was surprised because honestly, I wasn't expecting that. I expected them to give the cold shoulder or something because I really felt like a new student that day. The lingering scent of the summer can still be smelled with the countless stories that each of us told. I sat near Sam and we just jumped into a conversation. It was pretty fast and a little bit awkward but it was still nice. Rhine joined us then started telling these stories of her old school. She said that she really missed us and shouldn't have let her parents transfer her to another school last Sophomore year. Paul started to tease Rhine calling her a witch. We all laughed then Rhine tried to smack Paul but he dodged and ran around the room. Rhine tried to catch him but he was too fast. She grew tired and just went back to her seat to rest. I laughed but not the same laughter I get when a really funny thing happened. It was a good morning until everyone came and I switched seats closer to my friends. We exchanged greetings and with the question, "How was your summer vacation?" Then you came up and I saw you with your best friend. I wanted to say hello but I still felt like we were strangers to each other so I decided to just wait for a couple more days before I talk to you.

The days unfolded so fast that I forgot how we even reconnected. I just remember talking to you and exchanging jokes with each other. We made fun of everyone and had inside jokes that only we both know. It was a time that I really miss the most right now. We didn't care about the whole world because we were just there having fun. As the weeks go by, we grew closer with each other until it was the month of December and you started acting really weird. You were saying things that were really confusing. One time you said to me that you've already met the love of your life and to be honest, I just really didn't care. I still asked you who that person was because that's what a concerned friend does. You just said that I'll know him when the time comes. You said that you're going to confront 'him' when we already graduated to avoid issues. Then I asked you, what if he says that he doesn't love you back? You said that it's okay, at least you said your true feelings and that was enough for you. Then I left it at that. I didn't want to press on because I thought that it was your privacy to keep but it seemed like you really want to tease me about it because you were acting like you were telling everyone about it but me. I grew suspicious but I still ignored it because I thought that maybe it was a secret you could only tell to your girl friends. Then the day before our christmas party, you said that the one whom you love is me. I was struck by your answer. I feigned a smile and said jokingly that I can't help it, I guess I'm just too handsome that girls are falling head over heels for me. Then, you smiled sarcastically at me and said that it was only a joke. You said that I was too gullible. My heart fell a little that day because part of me never really believed what you said but the other half said the opposite. The next year came so fast and everything went out of control. We were having fights because of our schoolwork. I got really irritated with you and called you a drama queen. You cried and I didn't know what to do so I just ignored you and still kept on arguing with you because I was too stubborn. I knew that I had to stop but I didn't and I know now that I've hurt you.

We finished our schoolwork even though we were still arguing so I wrote you a letter telling you I'm sorry. We made up and became friends again but there was like a vast ocean lying before us separating us like two continents. Then everything was awkward again between us. You started calling me numb and our classmates were telling me to talk to you because apparently, you had a crush on me. I thought then that that was impossible. I just laughed at them because I've already heard the truth in your mouth so I ignored their remarks. Then something happened. I felt like you-actually you and Daphne- betrayed me. I lost trust and faith in you so I just started to drift away from you. After that, I started to ignore you. I didn't want to have anything to do with you so I just left you. Until the last day of our junior year, I didn't talk to you or even acknowledged you. I just left us at that.

Summer came and went and suddenly it was June. It was our senior year. We didn't really talk or did anything to fix what was happening with us. It wasn't until a few weeks passed until I started talking to you. We tried to fix our friendship several times but like a complicated relationship, we break up, make up, then break up again. I was tired with all these games and I guess I decided that enough is enough. You continued doing the same things over and over again and I don't want to do it anymore. I mean, I got it. You love me. But unfortunately, I never loved you back... ever. I thought about being in a romantic relationship with you but I knew that I'll just hurt you in the end. I don't want to take a chance with you because I don't feel anything for you.

Now, we seperate ways trying to live in this world that holds many challenges and inevitable obstacles. Even though we can't fix this thing between us, I still hope the best for you. I hope that we'll move on and try to forget all the bad things that had happened and instead remember the time when we were just enjoying life- as friends- and doing what normal teenagers do: Living life to the fullest. Farewell, and if we ever meet again, I hope that there are no hard feelings between us.