ive never felt this way in my life before besides that one time in sixth grade. why is everything so fucking difficult now?? everything was so simple back then, now everyone is against each other and fucking crazy. math is so dumb and stupid. i don't need to use it at all for whatever the hell id do as a job later, so why the hell do we need it? why can't i just d*e? life would be simpler for everyone else if i didn't exist. i just want someone to hug me and let me vent in front of them without being called "annoying" or "an attention seeker" or "a stupid crybaby". that's why i don't ask for help at all. im afraid of rejection and abandonment, and ive never even been rejected or abandoned. where the hell did the thoughts come from? i hate myself honestly. im fucking overweight and fat as fuck, im insecure, i am awkward as shit, and i just can't even ask the teacher a question because im afraid of them calling me stupid for not knowing something as simple as what the correct punctuation to a stupid, meaningless sentence is. if im fat as hell, nobody likes me, and i can't say shit to save my life, why live?
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Randomi feel like this needs to be made...i have so much shit to get off my chest... possible trigger warnings: mentions of su*c*de, r*pe, swearing, etc. (rated mature for serious topics)
