Thoughts of a foolish girl

M

You scream like a storm
Hitting me to the bones
You can't give me the perfect rate of love
Sometimes too much, or not enough
Wanted a well-raised, good at school daughter
This is crazy how we went from best friends to this
This hatful state of mind
Constantly going around
Tears running down my cheeks ever nights
The pressure on my shoulders is crushing me down
Don't know if I'll make it
Don't know if I can wait till it
Freedom looks so far from this high tower
Issues devours me
I know each line of your story heart by heart
Have heard it a thousand times
And still feeling the same about it
I don't care
I know you had tough times, we all had
You're not special
You're not wonderful
I know you worked hard, studying all noon and nights
But I can't do that
I'm not you
I never wanted to be
You annoy me
You ruin me
You hurt me
Hate this worm in my stomach
who wants to forgive you
cause you supposed to love me.
Jealous, so jealous of every girls with good relationships with their mom
I'm relating to the worst
Felling sick, sad and empty
Is this how it have to be ?
I'm trying to understand
Who's wrong ?
Am I the problem or you are ?
Who's the liar ?
Think I dont wanna face the truth