Thoughts of a foolish girl

Her

Overthinking
Over feeling
She's running out of tears.
Holding her breath
It might be fate
She give up to her fears
Like a step back spectator
Always holding the door
For others.
"But who's gonna hold it for me ?"
I guess this is how it ought to be
She'll always be outside of everyone's mind
Never been hold
Never been loved
Never been kissed
Scratching her fists
Deep scars all over her soul
"The best time of your life"
They said
All bullshits, she swears.
Try,
fall,
get up,
on the ground again.
"Don't lose hope"
A dreamer, lost in the real world
Like Alice, shes following the rabbit
I guess she felt down in the wrong hole
Feelings, sentiments
All those things inside her head
She doesn't know how it works
But she feel them through her veins
They appeared, one by one
Filling up the jar
Until it starts to overflow
Shes jealous of their happiness
Their serenity
feeling like shes the only one on this planet
Who doesn't fit it perfectly
Every step that she takes
She takes it wrong
Every word that she say
She thinks about it all along
"Stupid, Idiot, what a foolish girl"
A inner voice who doesn't cheer you up
Polished, shining like a pearl
She spills everything in the cup
She have ambitions, hopes
She want to get out of this devil town
Griping tightly to the ropes
Looking for help all around
She buried her mind in books
Living a thousand other life
Too afraid to live her own
That's why she's all alone
A twisted mind, a twisted soul
She feels different
She craves for love and attention
But too shy to ask
She falls,
every time someone look at her
Using delusion
as a weapon against the reality
I hope she's gonna be okay
I mean, she's nice girl y'know
She sees everything, hears every conversation
Knows all the secrets,
but the only one she doesn't know
is that of happiness