The Effect Of Love

Introduction

I'm not going to start off this book with a "its started off on a fine day" setting because for me it wasn't. My name is Janelle and this is my story.

I have always dreaded going to school because admit it, we hate everyone in the class. Yes, i may have some close friends but other than that i hate 80% of my classmates, some people are quite decent. I have never took interest in people i can see face to face but loved the thrill of talking to people online. I have many friends online but only a few offline. My family isn't very supportive of me talking to strangers online but i couldn't care less. My "family" online was much more loving than the one i had offline. Honestly,if i could stay at home and be a shut in i wouldn't mind at all but i still needed to play the role of a student for the next 2 years.

Maybe its because of this i grew very attached to people online. I felt and knew that they would not judge my problems and my real life friends would. I was always scared of being judged by people and it was then i met Him.

Up till now i still don't know his real name but lets call him Jake for now. He was what i would consider my pillar of hope. Talking to him always made my day. I would text him in class and complain to him about school and he would just laugh and tell me to concentrate and graduate. Because of time difference, my morning was his night and my night was his morning. So he usually stayed up late just to say good morning to me and talk for awhile. I did the same thing. I would stay up till 4am before he goes off to college. We would always tell each other "another 5 more minutes" but the amount of stuff that we could talk in that 5 minutes made the conversation last another hour.

Have you ever had those kind of conversations? Where one topic led to another and you end up telling your whole life to the other person. I am the type of person that gets attached to things easily but almost as easily get over things. I'm a very half-assed person but i knew that my love for him was a 100%. This pain in my heart reminds me everyday of the things i could have done.

Over the chapters of this book i hope that slowly, people will understand the meaning of love. If you feel you have lost sight of the light at the end of the tunnel, don't worry. Someone will soon come to your rescue.