Hello again!! (Janoskians Fanfic)

20 funeral

A/ n this is also a sad chapter sorry but I need to. Enjoy
Hanna's POV:
Jai and I got out of the hospital. It's been a week since the crash, we asked the funeral home to hold onto the twins until we were out. I went onto Twitter and put of a picture of me. Photo above. I also the one that Gina took (of Jai and I in the hospital beds with Darragh and Jacob in our arms.) With the caption ' R.I.P baby Darragh and baby Jacob, you guys would have been three weeks old today. I wish I could have seen you two grow up to be wonderful men like your father @jaibrooks1...' My Twitter notifications went wild. Tomorrow is the day of the funeral. I had already lost my baby fat and I donated all of my maternity clothes to a charity. We all sat on the couch, the TV was on but nobody was watching it. Jai and I were staring into space and everybody else was on their phones. We sat in silence, not an awkward one everybody was just to upset and shocked to make conversation. I thought about how excited Jai was for the twins and how happy he was when they were born. I thought about how he said he was not going to leave me on my own with children like his dad left his mom. A tear rolled down me cheek. One by one the tears rolled down my face. I wipped them away and saw that everybody was looking at me. I stood up and walked out. I waked into Jacob and Darragh's old room. I sat on the floor and cried, thinking about the life that they could have had. I cried even more thinking about how happy Jai and I were with them. There was a knock at the door. "Come in" I wipped away the tears on my face. Kira and Caitlin walked in. We talked for hours and I went downstairs to help Gina cook the dinner. She was making some lasagna. I got the plates and everything else out. The lasagna was done and gone was putting it onto people's plates. "Guys dinner is ready now" Gina shouted up to them while I put in on the table. Everybody came in and sat down. I sat beside Jai. We ate in silence. "I'm going to make a blog video" Jai said breaking the silence. "Do you want help editing when your done" Luke suggested. "No, this isn't going to be edited. But thanks" Jai smiled at Luke, it the first time I've seen him smile since we found out that the twins died. We continued eating. I finished and I washed my plate. I went upstairs to shower, I got out and got dried. I put on a tank top and pajama shorts. I heard Jai talking in the next room, so I didn't dry my hair in case he was making a video. I washed my face and decided to paint my nails. I painted them black for tomorrow. Jai came in a few hours later and said that he was done the video. He went in for a shower and I got my outfit ready for the morning. He came back in with a towel around his waist, looking for something to wear. I handed him a pair of boxers. "Thanks Hannah" He smiled at me. I smiled back at him. He put them on and came over to me. I stood up and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me and I cried into his chest. "I'm sorry Jai" I hugged him tighter. "It was all my fault. I could have just walked with you instead of you driving. I should have died, not them" I cried. "Hannah its not your fault, it's the truck drivers fault. Don't blame yourself for something that you could have stopped" he reassured me. I wiped my eyes and he picked me up. I wrapped my legs arout him as he put me on the bed. I kissed him and wrapped my arms around his neck. The kiss got more full of love and passion. Just then thee was a knock at the bedroom. Jai hopped off of me and Gina walked in. "Guys I'm going to bed now, goodnight" she kissed us on the cheek. "Goodnight Mum" Jai kissed her back. "Goodnight Gina" I hugged her. Jai and I lay in bed with his arms wrapped around me. I fell asleep.

The next morning.......................

I woke up at 6:30am and went to shower. I waxed again and put on my black body con dress with my black heels. I put my hair in loose curls. I applied some foundation, concealer, eye shadow, blush, mascara, eye liner, lip liner and some lipstick. I sprayed my perfume and walked out of the bathroom. Jai walked in and showered. About a half an hour later he came back out in a black suit, black tie and a white shirt. We left to meet everybody else at the church. Jai and Luke carried Darragh's coffin while Daniel and James carried Jacob's coffin. Beau walked beside me as I carried a picture of them both and placed it on their coffin's. The speaches went bye pretty quickly, then I was my turn. I stood up beside the microphone and took a deep breath. I began "Jai and I were blessed to have such amazing and perfect boys. They were so good. Even though we only got to spend two weeks with them it was nice to see what a family would have been like" I croaked as tears rolled down my cheeks. "I never thought that I'd be the one's to burry my children, I always thought that they'd be up here burrying me. It was horrible to hear that they had been taken away from me. Though they only had a short life they made everybody happy and I want to say that it was a pleasure to call them mine" I said crying, I stepped away from the microphone and went back to my seat. Jai hugged me.

At the graveyard.........................

There were two graves beside each other. One for Darragh and one for Jacob. I put a rose in each and cried. Jai did the same as the tears rolled down his cheeks. There were some fans there but they paid their respects and left us alone. We were walking back to the car. Gina dropped us home because Jai's car was still getting fixed. I sat up in bed and thought about how that was the last time I was ever going to see Darragh and Jacob. I cried myself to sleep.

A/ n sorry it took so long I've been busy. kissmybigbutera I have no credit to text you back but look at your IG DMS :)