Beyond the Constellation

Routine

★☆Elijah☆★

I have an infatuation with the stars. They give me peace of mind. They also remind me of HER .

The stars make me feel like I have a certain connection towards her if I look at them long enough.

Anytime I'm having a hard time with something I come here. Where no one is around. I can think without being interrupted. People tend to talk to someone when they are by themselves.

Which I always am. I like being alone. I hate having interactions with people who don't give a shit about me.

That's why I try not to make any more relationships with anyone. I would only get hurt in the end.

As I pack up things and get in my car. I look at the stars one last time before heading home.

It takes 20 minutes to get home. I get my house keys out of my pocket to open the door.

Suddenly, the door swings open. My mom with a not so happy look on her face "where have you been" she says with a worried look on her face. "it's a secret" I say. She looks upset at my answer.

She tends to worry a lot, being that I don't have lots of friends. "imma go shower" I tell her. "what about dinner" she says. "I'm not that hungry" I reply. I head up the stairs to my room to get my towel.

I head to the bathroom across from my room. I close the door and take a deep breath. I look in the mirror and see my hair starting to get longer.

Which is a sign I need to get a haircut. I turn the shower on. Hot water, I hate the cold. It only reminds me of HER. I hate thinking about her. She left and is never coming back.

My only real friend. Somewhere far, far away. My only friend that I'll never see again. I start to get emotional again. I pull my shirt off in one swift motion, then my cargo pants and boxers.

I open the curtain to get in. I start to feel better as the water burns into my back. It feels nice. The only warmth I feel. I wash up slowly, loving how nice the water feels. A shower helps when I get emotional.

After a while, I turn the water off and get out. I felt a cold breeze through my body. I shiver in response. I take my towel and wrap it around my waist, and head to my room.

I grab some boxers out of one draw and some pajama pants out another. Everything in my room is neat and organized. I hate being out of control.

I don't grab a shirt cause I don't sleep with one. I get hot during the night.

I grab my deodorant from off my nightstand and put some on. I then put my dirty clothes off the bathroom floor and into my hamper.

I have school tomorrow. School is on the top of my hate list. It's where I'm forced to make connections I have no intention of keeping.

I like to distance myself from others. I go to grab my camera where all my photos of the stars are.

After a few minutes of staring, I put my camera down and grabbed my phone from off my bed.

I open it up to listen to my favorite artist, Chase Atlantic. I start to lay down. I usually go to sleep listening to their music.