When You Were Mine. [SATOSUGU]

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Song recs:
"Mr. loverman" - Ricky Montgomery
"Romantic Homicide" - d4vd
"Love like you" - Rebecca Sugar

"When death
takes my hand,
I will hold you
with the other,
And promise to find you,
In every life time."

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First person POV:

He's gone. And I can't get him back. I can't see his charming smile, I can't feel his warmth envelope me when we share an embrace. I can't hear the way he says my name anymore. He's gone.

"At least curse me a little before the very end."

He said with a chuckle as I crouched by his side, watching him intently. He was battered and bruised, an arm missing. His wounds looked like burns, plastered across his body. All i could think was, "How did things turn out this way?"

Those were his last words to me before he left. Before my Suguru left this world and left me behind. Now I'm stuck in this wretched world without my best friend. My love. My one and only.

It was my fault for this. I let him go that day when I know I shouldn't have. I let him slip through my fingers like the grains of sand that covered the beach. All because I was too naïve and blinded by love that I didn't even see what hit me.

I'm left with an empty hole in my heart where he used to fill that space. I want him back. I want my Suguru back. Please bring him back to me.

"Are you the strongest because you are Gojo Satoru? Or does being Gojo Satoru make you the strongest?"

That's what he said to me when we fought in the streets of Shibuya, the crowd of people passing by us without a care. All I wanted was for him to come over to me and we could talk. I didn't want him to go. How my heart ached as I saw the way he looked at me. His lips were not curved up in that sweet smile I always knew.

As I held up my hand to possibly end his life as he walked away from me, I couldn't.

But I was the strongest, right? That was a lie. I wasn't the strongest. I knew I was a coward deep down inside, too weak to end him. Because I was so blinded by love that I couldn't. I didn't want to hurt him.

And as he disappeared into the crowd, I wanted to chase him. To tell him that we could work this out. That I was there to help him. But I was too cowardice to push past the sea of people and hold him in my arms once more.

Now as I lie awake in my bed, I thought of everything that could've happened if I did so. Would things be different then? Would he still be here if I had done something to prevent this?

Would there still be time to tell him that I loved him?

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But it was too late. The damage has already been done. He's gone and I can't get him back.

"Suguru..." I called out, as if he could hear me. I closed my eyes, focusing on all the memories I had of him that I held close to my heart.

"Satoru."

Love was truly the most twisted curse of them all.