Contempt

8.

Sunoo's heart skipped a beat when Heeseung parted the hair that fell over his eyes while he was busy adjusting the collar of Sunghoon's denim jacket. He knows he shouldn't be swayed for even a teeny tiny bit by this action as it's only for the requested skinship content just like what he was doing then but he couldn't help his heart from fluttering a little bit. So Sunoo decided to stick along Sunghoon more for their unit vlog unless it was necessary.

The vlogs ended just right after the day was over now it's all up to the editors. Boys settled back to their original rooms at the dorms with the excitement of their song release by next weekend.

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After  the unit vlog Sunoo has noticed a change in his surrounding. It was the feeling of someone's eyes always lingering on him and following his every single move. And to his surprise when they were practising and saw the gaze that Heeseung had on him through the mirrors it literally sent shivers down his spine. He never felt that way with anyone, to say specifically with a boy shook his core even though he never dwelled on his sexuality even though he knew many boys were attracted to him at school time too. He was quite confident in his feminine side and embraced it so well. The interaction with Heeseung has always been different. What made him more confused was all about these foreign feelings filling in his mind for that boy who stole his first kiss and invaded his personal space many times.

And just like any insecure teen would have he also took his doubts to the internet. He searched online to know what he's actually feeling. Though he wanted to ask about it to his Jay hyung he thought it'll be a bother and above all a personal  matter to deal with.

What he found out was all too much for his brain to process for he is a young boy after all.

He searched about the reason for someone's lingering gaze, the reason for feeling cold in the abdomen and hands, reason for weakness in his knees under someone particular's watch which all lead to things related to having a crush to love to lust on them.

Anxiously he gulped so hard after such info and started to squeeze his palms together for some warmth then ran straight to his bunk bed and hid under the blanket covering his head with the pillow, throwing his phone by the side.

He felt overwhelmed, a fresh warmth crawling over his cheeks.  He isn't a fool to think that same man to love him or anything but the thought of love itself was too much for his heart to behold. Somehow a smile formed on his lips but it didn't last long as Jay broke the little world he was in by a worrisome question.

"Sunooya are you cold?? ... "

Following the silence Jay proceeded to remove the blanket off the younger since he thought the younger was having  fever .

"Oh god sunoo your face.... you're so red. Are you not feeling well? "

Sunoo instantly shook his head no repeatedly and choked out ,

" I-I'm a-alright hyung."

Jay took notice of the phone peeking through the blanket and it then ring a bell and just decided to tease the younger.

"Oh no don't tell me it's that what you were watching... " Jay asked with a smug expression wiggling his eyebrows at the phone.

"Huh.... What!!! Ehh...Eyy......nooo hyung I don't watch those kind of stuffs..."  Sunoo replied with a loud gasp as if he were obliged to justify his innocence, meanwhile attempting to cover his phone  for the article was still on display which Jay didn't took notice of because of the dimmed screen.

" Ahaa what kind of... I didn't even mention what... Tell me what kind of...."

Niki walked in hearing the commotion... "What's going on hyungs ?!! "