I Burn For You || Jikook

he was sunshine, i was midnight rain

A slow-motion, love potion ♬

 
"No hyung please, I've told you I'm not interested....." Jimin heaved a sigh, tired of having said the same sentence a million times already. 
 
He was currently on the phone with his stepbrother, Kim Seokjin. After having lost their parents in an accident, Seokjin was all that Jimin had. He was Jimin's mentor, his parental figure, his caretaker, his ultimate motivator, and the best big brother. Jimin loved him dearly. And although Jimin loved his brother very much, he couldn't help but have the urge to rip the hair out of the said brother in situations like this.
 
"Oh c'mon Min, I can't have you say the same thing over and over again. You can't run away from this forever. You have to find someone in life Jimin, you can't stay alone forever. I don't know why you're so against the idea of dating and settling down....." Seokjin sighed dramatically on the line, making Jimin shake his head as a small smile appeared on his face at his brother's antics.
 
"Take me for example, I hated dating too initially. But all of that changed when I met Namjoon. And now, I'm happily married for two years, and Namjoonie is such a sweetheart. And the best thing is that you're the one who made me meet Namjoon in the first place. You're the one who set us up. You brought me out of my shell Minnie, and I just want to do the same for you. I'm just looking out for you, please don't misunderstand me. I don't want to force you about this, but I just get worried you know....." Seokjin's voice cracked a little at the end, making Jimin's stomach churn with guilt.
 
"I won't always be there with you Jimin. I just want you to have someone, someone to share the ups and downs in life with, someone to love and care for, someone to share the treasures and the beauty of love with. I just want you to know that having a life partner can be something beautiful. I just want my baby brother to not be alone for the rest of his life....." Sniffling could be heard on the other side of the line, making Jimin sigh deeply.
 
A person crossed Jimin's mind at Seokjin's words, pulling him into a daze before he blinked and rapidly shook his head to get rid of the thought, wanting to focus on Seokjin for now.
 
"Oh Jinnie hyung....." 
 
"I'm not asking for much Minnie, just atleast try to go out or let me set you up with someone. I could try to set you up with Namjoon's cousin brother, Kim Taehyung? You've met him before, right? I know you guys will have great chemistry, and not to mention you guys will make some amazingly hot babies!" Seokjin squealed on the line, undoubtedly proud of himself for coming up with the suggestion. Jimin couldn't help but chuckle with disbelief and slight horror, because his hyung's imagination was wild.
 
"You're talking about having babies, now? Unbelievable hyung. You're going too far." With a hint of exasperation in his voice, Jimin whined, trying to coax his hyung into changing the subject. But to no avail, of course, because Kim Seokjin was anything but a quitter.
 
"Oh shush, I'm not going too far. You're already 28 for God's sake, Minnie. You have to get married and settle down sooner or later. So, what do you say? I'll hit Taehyung up, I think he'll agree for sure. Who would refuse to go on a date with my beloved Jiminie, anyway? You're a total catch, and I think Taehyung already has the hots for you. Just give it a thought, hmm?" Seokjin's voice was laced with high expectation and hope, and Jimin didn't have the heart to outrightly refuse him this time. But that didn't mean that he would accept the offer right away either. He still wanted to get his way with this whole situation, but without hurting his hyung's feelings somehow. 
 
"Okay, fine. I'll think about it hyung. I'll let you know when I finalize my decision, alright? Are you happy now?" Jimin said defeatedly, but Seokjin was over the moon by hearing Jimin's words.
 
"Oh my God! You cannot understand how happy I am to hear you say that, Min! Let me know your decision as soon as possible, okay? Gosh, I can't wait to tell Joonie about this, I bet he'll be ecstatic! Okay, I gotta go now Min, Joonie is going to be back soon. I'm so excited for his reaction! Speak soon Minnie, I love you so much." And the line was immediately cut after that.
 
"Yeah....love you too hyung....." Jimin whispered to the beeping sound on his phone. He sighed for the umpteenth time as he rubbed his tired eyes with his hands. 
 
God, he was in big trouble now and he didn't know what to do. He racked his brain to come up with something. Then as if on cue, someone came to his mind immediately. 
 
Only one person could comfort and support him through this. Jimin's heart fluttered as he thought about that person, grabbing his phone and pressing on his top starred contact. Jimin held the phone close to his ears, his heart pounding in his chest. The call ringed for a few seconds before the person received.
 
"Hello? Jiminie hyung?" A deep, soothing voice could be heard on the other end, and Jimin's heart nearly jumped out of his chest. It was funny how the person's voice alone could relieve all of Jimin's previous nerves, putting his mind at ease and peace at once.
 
"Hi Jungkookie. Would you mind if I drop by your apartment right now? It's an emergency."
 
The person was none other than Jeon Jungkook. Jimin's bestfriend since childhood, his ultimate confidant, his soulmate, his number one cheerleader and supporter, his backbone, his moon, his entire world.
 
Jungkook happened to be the boy whom Jimin secretly carried feelings for, the boy whom Jimin had pined after eversince they were kids, the boy who was also the only love of Jimin's life.
 
But....
 
Little did he know that Jeon Jungkook loved him just as much, if not more. Little did he know that he was Jungkook's sun, the light, the euphoria, the happiness in his life. Little did he know that he was Jungkook's entire world too, that he had pined after Jimin way longer than Jimin had pined after him. Little did he know that Jungkook would do absolutely anything for him, that he would take a bullet for him. Little did he know that he was the only and true love of Jungkook's life.
 
And little did Jimin know that Jungkook loved him more than life itself.
 
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"Jungkookie!" Jimin wailed as soon as Jungkook opened the door of his apartment. Jimin tackled Jungkook into a bone-crushing hug, nearly making Jungkook lose his balance and toppling both of them over.
 
"Hi hyung." Jungkook said, smiling fondly as he steadied Jimin with his hands, wrapping his arms around Jimin's waist and bringing him closer to himself. Jimin nuzzled into his chest, muttering a cute "Hi Koo." back, his voice coming out muffled. Jungkook chuckled at that, his eyes shining with utter endearment, his arms tightening around Jimin's body. 
 
"What's the matter, hyung? Don't tell me Jin hyung is bothering you with his same old antics again?" Jungkook questioned as he burried his face on top of Jimin's head, nuzzling his face against Jimin's fluffy locks affectionately. At their close proximity, a blooming blush sat high on the cheeks of the both of them, unbeknownst to eachother.
 
"Oh God, you don't know Kookie. It's way worse this time." Jimin said as he peered up at Jungkook from his chest, his arms locking around Jungkook's neck.
 
"Tell me about it. You know I'm always here for you hyung." Jungkook said as he tilted his head down to look at Jimin's face. Jungkook stared into Jimin's eyes with such intent and adoration that Jimin had to shyly avert his eyes, his heart threatening to combust.
 
Oh God, Jeon Jungkook was going to be the death of Jimin. But Jimin would happily die if it was in the arms of the love of his life.
 
"Okay, so here it goes....."
 
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"I seriously don't know what to do Kookie....Jin hyung seemed so excited this time, and I don't want to hurt his feelings by outrightly refusing him again....." Jimin huffed after they were comfortably seated on Jungkook's bed, rubbing his temple in frustration. Jungkook could feel his Jiminie's inner turmoil, wanting to do something to comfort his beloved hyung. And before he could think about it, his hands moved to hold Jimin and bring him closer, until Jimin was sitting on his lap, staring at him with wide and surprised eyes. The pretty blush coating Jimin's cheeks made Jungkook's heart race uncontrollably. Jungkook could only imagine how red his own face was.
 
"Oh, my Jiminie hyungie....." Jungkook sighed, albeit contentedly as he sneakily wrapped his arms around Jimin's waist and brought him impossibly closer, attaching their bodies together, never being able to resist Jimin who was just sitting daintily on his lap. Jungkook embraced Jimin in a warm hug, Jimin readily accepting his embrace as he wrapped his arms around his shoulders and his legs around his waist. Jungkook buried his face in Jimin's neck, nuzzling his nose there, and it took everything in his being to resist kissing and licking the unblemished, porcelain skin. Jimin ruffled Jungkook's hair, pushing back and running his hands through Jungkook's bangs, resisting the urge to kiss his forehead.
 
"What should I do Jungkookie? Jin hyung just doesn't know how to give up. And I don't want to be set up with a stranger. Now, Jin hyung is talking about setting me up with Namjoon hyung's cousin, Kim Taehyung is the name. I don't want to go on a date with him. I've only met the guy once for fuck's sake!" Jimin exclaimed as he sighed deeply, trying hard to control his frustration and exasperation.
 
Only Jimin knew the actual reason why he didn't want to go on a date with someone else. It was because he wanted to go on a date with Jungkook. He imagined them having cute dates, going on picnics by the river side, Jungkook sneakily taking pictures of him throughout their dates, them getting icecream, them sharing lovely kisses, them having the most fun together and being so in love with eachother. He didn't want or need anybody else, he only ever dreamed of having Jungkook.
 
In the midst of his daydreaming, Jimin failed to notice how Jungkook's expression had changed slightly at the mention of a potential rival, his eyes burning with extreme jealousy, his arms tightening protectively around Jimin's body. But he calmed down immediately as Jimin started playing with his hair that curled around his nape. Jungkook smiled to himself, Jimin never failed to calm him down and make him feel at peace, even if he did it unknowingly sometimes.
 
Jungkook thought hard for a suggestion, not wanting to see his Jiminie in distress anymore. After contemplating for a while, Jungkook finally came up with an idea. But the thought of the idea alone made Jungkook's cheeks blush unabashedly, his stomach erupting with a whole flock of butterflies.
 
"Um.....Jiminie hyung, I have an idea....." Jungkook muttered hesitantly, not being able to meet Jimin's eyes. Jimin noticed it and softly cupped Jungkook's face with his hands, making him look straight into his eyes.
 
"What is it Kookie? You know you can tell me anything." Jimin encouraged him, sending a blinding smile towards Jungkook, making Jungkook's heart stutter.
 
"Um, I was thinking you could pretend to be in a relationship.....you know, fake date someone....." Jungkook uttered, his eyes nervously flickering around Jimin's face.
 
"Oh! That's actually a good idea Jungkookie. But who would agree to such a request?" Jimin mused, hiding his inner sadness with a fake smile.
 
'If only I could date you, Jungkook-ah....' Jimin thought sadly, a dull ache forming in his chest.
 
"Uh, Jiminie hyung, you can pretend to d-date m-me.....I want to be your b-boyfriend...." With some newfound courage, Jungkook said shyly, although he was terrified on the inside about Jimin's reaction. 
 
Jimin froze, expecting anything but that from Jungkook. But his heart couldn't help but flutter, his mind euphoric, his irises dancing with pure joy and mirth. He couldn't believe it, it was like a dream come true. Jimin was painfully desperate to hear these words from Jungkook for years. And he couldn't believe that this was finally happening. Was he dreaming? He must be dreaming.
 
"Um- hyung?" Jungkook cupped Jimin's face tenderly, having noticed his frozen state. Jimin broke out of his daze at the comforting touch, then it hit him with full force that this was real. Holy shit, this was really happening! Jungkook really wanted to be his boyfriend!!
 
"Uh- yeah....yeah, I'm here Kookie, I'm here. I would, um, love to have you as my, um, b-boyfriend...." Jimin, A Stuttering Mess™, had to pause to take a deep breath in to calm his nerves, "....but are you sure you want to though? I don't want you to force yourself Kookie...." Even though Jimin desperately wanted this himself, he couldn't help but be concerned that Jungkook might be doing this just for him and against his own will.
 
Jungkook smiled fondly, his heart melting at Jimin's concern. Even when in distress, his Jiminie would never stop putting others first, he truly was so selfless. He was Jungkook's everything. His baby chick. His angel.
 
"Of course I want to do this, hyungie. I'm the one who voluntarily suggested it in the first place, right?" Jungkook said smiling, wanting to cheer his Jiminie up, his bunny teeth peeking out in the process, warming Jimin's heart.
 
"We can do this Jiminie hyung." Jungkook's nerves were back all of a sudden, his heart pounding in his chest when he realised what he had actually done. He laughed nervously to camouflage how he was really feeling. He didn't want to mess this up. This was probably his only chance of ever getting to have Jimin as his lover, a chance he so desperately needed.
 
Jungkook loved Jimin so very much, that every fibre of his soul was devoted to him. He ached to have Jimin close to him, to cross this boundary of being just bestfriends, to become lovers who were madly in love with eachother. He ached to kiss Jimin, dote on Jimin, to love Jimin unconditionally and openly without ever having to worry about the consequences, to make love to Jimin to show him just how deep and raw Jungkook's love ran for him. Jungkook wanted it all, he was so hopelessly in love with Jimin afterall, but he was just too much of a coward in real life. Therefore, he didn't want to lose this chance to live his one true dream, atleast for once in his life.
 
But lord knows what on earth happened to Jungkook's idiotic self, because he stupidly added, "We can do this. It's just pretend anyway." 
 
And just like that, the bubble burst and Jimin's heart broke. His eyes suddenly burned, but he blinked rapidly to get rid of the moisture as he looked up at Jungkook and said, smiling brokenly, "Yeah, it's just pretend anyway......"
 
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"Alright Kookie, I just talked to Jin hyung on the phone and told him about us. He seemed quite confused and surprised initially, but he sounded really excited. He has invited us to have dinner with him and Namjoon hyung at their home this weekend."
 
"Okay hyung, that's great news. I'm relieved that Jin hyung won't be troubling you anymore about this." 
 
"Yeah....you're right. Thank you for doing this Ggukie."
 
"Anything for you, Jiminie."
 
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On one fine sunny day:
 
 
"Jiminie hyung, we should practice kissing."
 
Jimin choked on his lemonade, his eyes as wide as saucers, as he stared at Jungkook as if he had grown another head.
 
"W-what?" 
 
"Well we are a couple now, and we are going to Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung's home this weekend. What if they ask us to kiss or something? We have to be able to do all the lovey-dovey stuff that couples usually do." Jungkook stated casually on the outside, while on the inside his mind was going haywire, and his heart was going into an overdrive.
 
"Oh y-yeah, you're right Jungkookie.....we should, um, practice kissing...." Jimin, A Stuttering Mess™ 2.0, said as he chuckled nervously, his cheeks on fire.
 
"Do you trust me, hyung?" Jungkook asked, his face a beet red, his voice gone incredibly soft for his Jiminie, as he delicately cupped Jimin's face with his hands.
 
"I trust you with my life, Jungkookie." Jimin said without an ounce of hesitation.
 
"Then let me ask you for something, hmm? Please close your eyes..." Jungkook whispered, his breath fanning Jimin's lips, both of them staring deep into eachother's eyes, reluctant to ever look away.
 
"Trust me....." Jungkook whispered softly, his eyes never leaving Jimin's eyes, leaning in a little closer, leaving only an inch-long distance between their lips.
 
"I trust you." Jimin said unfalteringly, nodding his head, finally closing his eyes after taking a sharp breath in.
 
And Jungkook just took a second to marvel in Jimin's natural beauty. The way his eyelashes were so long and curled, casting a shadow on his cheeks, the cute slope of his button nose and the sharp outline of his jaw, the way his cheeks were blushing a beautiful scarlet red, the way his eyebrows were pinched together in anticipation, the way his luscious cherry red lips were puckered slightly, looking so kissable that Jungkook gulped heavily. Jimin was simply ravishing.
 
And the sunlight falling on top of him casted a halo on his head, making him look like he was something unattainable, something enchanting, something enigmatic. Like a porcelain doll. Like a precious angel fairy who had graced the earth with his presence. Jimin was incredibly stunning, both inside and out.
 
And Jungkook found himself falling in love with him all over again. He stared at his angel in utter awe, thinking that it was so easy for him to fall in love with Jimin, over and over again.
 
Without wasting anymore time, not wanting to keep his precious love waiting, Jungkook closed the distance between them and locked his lips with Jimin's in a soft kiss. 
 
It was slow paced and peaceful, both taking their time to kiss eachother to their hearts' content, putting in all the deep, never-ending feelings they felt for eachother into the kiss.
 
Jungkook tilted his head to deepen the kiss, gently pulling Jimin into his lap, tightly wrapping his arms around Jimin's waist, making Jimin arch his back.
 
Jungkook sucked on Jimin's bottom lip, making Jimin gasp inaudibly. Jungkook used the opportunity to slide his tongue into Jimin's mouth, licking into his mouth, tasting and memorising every corner of it. Jimin sucked on Jungkook's tongue, making Jungkook's heart burst, his veins coursing with sheer ecstacy and euphoria.
 
They lost track of time as they kissed, long forgotten that they were 'practicing' kissing. They allowed themselves the risk, aided by the mask of all of this being an act, a show for the others when in reality it was anything but fake. This was as real as it could get. This was a precious, most awaited chance for them to show their feelings for eachother with freedom; a getaway from all the heart-wrenching yearning and longing they had carried for so long.
 
They finally had to pull away when their lungs begged for oxygen, panting heavily, their chests that were flush against eachother rising up and down. They rested their foreheads against eachother, their noses brushing, their eyes closed with bliss as a wave of serenity washed over them.
 
When they caught their breaths and looked into each other's eyes again, they were suddenly brought back to the real world. Realisation flooded their senses as their eyes widened in tandem. Even if the deep feelings and the sacred kiss were real for them individually, it didn't mean that it was real for the other person. 
 
They moved away from eachother, avoiding eye-contact, the bitter truth sitting heavy in their throats, constricting their chests.
 
Jimin smiled faintly, ignoring the ache in his chest as he finally looked up at Jungkook. His breath was stolen away from him when he looked at Jungkook's face, his cheeks that were blushing furiously, his unfocused doe eyes, the shy smile painting his rosy lips. He was beautiful. Jimin fell in love with him all over again. And it crushed him to know that Jungkook could never actually be his.
 
Jimin gulped down the lump in his throat, trying hard to control the incoming tremble in his voice as he whispered, "Good practice Kookie...." Holding up a feeble thumbs up for good measure.
 
Jungkook ignored the excruciating pain in his chest at Jimin's admission, realising that he would never actually be close enough to his dream. He swallowed heavily, this throat suddenly dry as he whispered back, "Yeah....you too hyung."
 
Jungkook couldn't get rid of the ache in his heart for the rest of the day.
 
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