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🦊Sunoo - Fat shamed 🍛

Tw: bullying, $H, fainting, $u1c1dal thoughts

*Sunoo's POV*

For the past week, I have been receiving hate comments. Although I was trying my best to ignore them, they were still hurtful.

I stopped eating completely as I was just a waste of food.

I felt like I was useless to the group, as if everyone hated me. It felt like I was lazy and I kept dragging down the group with me.

I tried multiple things to distract me, such as cutting myself, purposefully starving my self and distancing myself from the others, but nothing worked.

I didn't eat breakfast this morning as I didn't have an appetite to eat.

"Sunoo! Sunoo!" I snapped out of my thoughts, realizing that we reached our destination, I looked at Heeseung who was trying calling me.

"Mhm?" I answered, not really paying attention, still deep in thoughts.

"Are you okay? You've been really quiet." I forced a smiled and nodded at his question.

Soon, we got out of the van and walked into the company.

After getting to our practice room, we placed our bags down.

Sunghoon connected his phone to the speaker, playing sweet venom.

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"Hyung, why do you keep messing up?" Niki asked feeling concerned and somewhat frustrated.

I'm so lazy, I can't even do one dance right.

"Sorry, I wasn't paying attention" I replied, forcing a slight smiling.

After messing up and starting over, again and again, I finally gave up, feeling disappointment and dissatisfied with myself.

I sighed, feeling a burning sensation in my throat as if I was about to cry from feeling so lazy.

"Let's just wrap up for today and continue tomorrow." Jungwon said, as he picked up his bag.

The others went to pick up their bags while I was standing there looking down, still deep in thoughts.

"Sunoo? Aren't you coming?" Jake asked, grabbing my attention.

I smiled and replied with "You guys go. I'm gonna stay and try to perfect the dance."

As they were exited, Jay asked, before closing the door, "Will you be okay here by yourself?"

I nodded. "Okay, call us if you need anything and be back home before 8."

They nodded and exited the room, leaving me alone in the empty room.

As soon as they left, I fell to my knees and started sobbing, thinking about everything that had happened.

Why am I like this? Why me? Why can't I just feel loved for once?

I got up and leaned on the wall, sitting down, still crying.

I cried with my hands on my face, thinking about all the hate comments.