It's not really necessary for me to take orders from someone taking me somewhere that I'm not fond of, but what do I know? I'm enjoying the least of his presence, just because of a stupid dare that brought me to places. "Baby girl, hold my hand." He said with those tantalizing eyes that never fails to make me follow. I get out of the car, assisted by him. He holds my hand everytime he senses I'm not in the mood of playing along with his games, but dang it electrifies me each and every second.
I'm not a girl with such big dreams of having the perfect guy standing in front me, at least having him as a life ruiner makes it slightly okay. "Baby girl, still not in the mood?" He whispers on the stop by the sliding door. That deep round voice and the warm rush of his breath that resonates on the back of my ear, makes me say "Please don't torture me more." Having him is actually the greatest medicine to cure the heart, but loving him is one of the reasons why my heart is not in a good condition also.
Kim Jong In, also known as the bad boy Kai, the boy who makes all of the man and woman in the campus bow; has been in a relationship with me the last 6 months. Confoundingly speaking, this is obviously a pretend love and it needs to stop. It halts my heart from beating. I'm no girl wishing for a drama-like love life, concluding that Kai would be mine in the end if we continue this piece of trash going on. Moreover, I let him hold my hand, I let him be close to me intimately, just because the culprit of his broken heart stands just meters out in the same place. I played along for 6 months and I guess it's time for me to tell him that this game is no longer my type to play.
"Baby girl..." He endears for the nth as we arrive inside the campus' victory party. "Baby girl?" Oh stop calling me that way. It hurts. "You're already melting me. Stop gaping at me like today's the last day you'll be able to see me." I squirm. Every word he says pokes my heart to the fullest. Any time now my heart would break into pieces. "Hey, you sure you're okay? Don't be like that, I'm all yours. You're the only one responsible for my existence here." His friends took a moment before drinking their beer and ended laughing at the side. His ex on my peripheral, darted her eyes on us, and that stare could suffocate me and Kai anytime. But the current situation was a total nuisance for me. I dart my attention to him and never did my eyes left his position, I want to savor my last minutes looking at him. He held me by the neck and aimed to kiss me on the forehead, I halted him and took a step back. "Baby girl?!" Their laughter tuned down and their faces were frowning at me.
I shook my head and ducked down. "I'm sorry, Kai." After my word, he hastily took my right hand and dragged me closer by him again. "That's okay, baby---" "No! Kai, I'm sorry." Everyone felt more agiatated than me. Dumping Kai in a public place like this, makes me the whole campus' great martyr. I'm actually making history here; I'm prepared and I have the will to take a stand against any man's cruel judgement. Just let me be safe, just let me be away from Kai so it won't hurt anymore. Please.
My knees suddenly shook, ending up knees bent on the ground. Kai held onto my arm to go and get me, then, "Hae, what's wrong?!" My bestfriend Baekhyun suddenly arouse out of nowhere. I continue to jerk my head, holding my tears back. "Baek, please take me home." I mouthed, Baekhyun comes fast along with my other friend Xiumin. I removed Kai's grasp of off my arm... there my tears fell. He was steady staring at me. I had the thought of him following me, but I guess I'm still not that important to him for him to do that.
The more awful I look the more awkward the scenery gets. Inch by inch I move away from a boy I learnt to love with in 6 months, it breaks my heart in every possible way. But I guess pretending wasn't really the thing I'm contented of, the sad truth is, I want it legal, legit and surreal. Sorry for not making it easy for you... I thought, because I never did anything to make her get Chloe back.
I continue walking. "That's it? How about getting Chloe back?" I heard his friend Sehun say. "The deal isn't done until you get her back, right? You're just gonna' let that Go Hae run off and forget the deal you guys made? Don't you remember, she's the reason why---"
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"Sehun stop! It's been far too long. Nothing happened, really. She's probably suffocating, that's why." Chanyeol cuts through Sehun who had lots to say and Kai was still digesting the whole tormenting happening. As Kai's bestfriend, Sehun clearly understands what Kai's been going through the past months and as much as possible Sehun's trying to help. With this revelation, Go Hae running away seems to give Sehun a bad temper. "You always take Go Hae's side when our friend Kai here is having a hard time... how could you Chan?" Sehun gnashed and rolled his eyes.
"Sehun, you may be the one closest to Kai, but still he won't say anything important to you. Best friends, huh? Chanyeol snickers, took a stand and left his seat. He left making the shot glass bounce on the center table, he left with these words, "You were never in a pretend love for 6 months, Sehun. Don't act like you know the pain Hea's going through." Chanyeol ran, holding onto his cardigan.
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Baekhyun and Xiumin were left with no words. They can't even express the pain of seeing their bestfriend cry the hell out of her lungs. Xiumin was trying hard not to talk, he's afraid to add on something more bad to Hae's sentiment, instead, he looked at her with sympathy. "I did the right thing, didn't I?" She asks, but Baekhyun was consistently patient waiting until she runs dry and never cry again.
Baekhyun, currently driving, stopped the car on the safe side. Full of guilt, he blurts, "It's just about time that you stay away from his evil schemes, Hae. You're not a robot to do whatever the hell he wants." Go Hae sat laid back flat on the backseat and wandered herself off. Baekhyun 'tsked' and Xiumin had no choice but to shake the bad vibes off the happy meter. Xiumin slaps Baekhyun on the arm, "You know very well that Hae has something different in her heart, don't scold her as if she did the wrong thing." He whispers. The eldest comes down from the front seat and transferred to the back seat where he can accompany the crying Go Hae.
He lays Hae's head on his shoulders. Baekhyun starts the car again, leaving them words, "I'm just glad you woke up from that nightmare. I love you, Go Hae. I don't want you hurt that's why I'm telling you this..." Continuing as he latches on the steering wheel, "Never ever plan to see or contact Jongin again. Transfer schools, leave your old apartment, change your phone number, I'll cover all the expenses just don't get yourself hurt. Live a new life."
Hae wipes of the tears on her face. "I don't even know what will hurt me less, is it leaving my old self or leaving Kai." He sniffs making Baekhyun and Xiumin more miserable.
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A/N: Ever been ina pretend love? It'll sure hurt, no matter how you think of it, right? So yes! Hi guys! This is another story for you guys to enjoy and I hope you would give it the same love and support like that love youNve given my old stories.
I'm sorry if I couldn't update my old ones faster than before, I'm currently on my second-third week of college life and I don't have the sufficient time to even construct the words up. I'm mental blocked, it takes hours to get a good chapter done. I won't promise, but I'll do my best to update the other stories.
For the nth time, thank you very much and I love you all guys! God bless you :)
