14.12.23.
you have become the person
you used to hate.
do
you
realise
this?i don't think you do.
i hope you understand
it one day.
and are left with regret.why does it have to be like that?
i am a ghost.
you are your own enemy.i really don't want to think about it
i want to stop caring about it.
but i can't.i will.
but not today i guess.i want to drown in something else.
i have realised
that i keep circling between the four first stages of grief.denial.
anger.
bargaining.
depression.but never acceptance.
when will i be free?
why are my own emotions
so awful to deal with?how do i stop?