Selfless: Book Two (bxb) ✔️

Chapter Ten: I Don't Regret It

Ace Villan

There had never been a magical moment for me. I kissed someone, and I felt like I was kissing a dead fish. I received no enjoyment out of it, and it felt like a job more than it was something I wanted to be doing. I concluded there was simply fundamentally wrong with my brain, and maybe there was. Maybe it was the alcohol this time, but I didn't believe it. At least, I didn't believe it right now.

I didn't believe it when my lips touched Cade's. I didn't believe it when I finally began to understand why humans found kissing so enjoyable. Because when our lips fused together, I lost every ounce of restraint, and I dove in for an exploration into why this felt how I always expected kisses to feel like.

Every little gasp from Cade only fueled my need for more. Those noises he made spoke the words he couldn't say. The way his hands fisted my shirt and the way he tried to pull me closer. It all told me he wanted more, and I was more than happy to give it to him. I couldn't explain it. But I knew there was time to be confused later. I couldn't ruin the first moment when things didn't feel like they lacked the fire they were supposed to have. There was fire here, and it was surrounding us.

I grabbed his sides and pulled him onto my lap. He straddled me, grabbing my face now as he assumed control over the heavy kiss we drunkenly found ourselves in. I couldn't stop. I couldn't think of a single fucking reason why I should stop. Especially not when Cade rose on his knees, becoming taller than my sitting form, and devoured me like it was something he always wanted. Like it was the only time he was going to have a chance, so he was taking full advantage of the taste I provided.

He lowered himself back onto my lap, and I gasped into his mouth when I felt him against me. He wasn't paying attention to anything except the way he consumed me or the way I consumed him right back. But the way my body responded in a very positive manner to the way he mindlessly sought out friction, I couldn't conceal the shiver that ran through my body. It was as if I suddenly became open to every single possible outcome. It was never like this. Oh. Shit. I had a lot to think about, but I definitely could do that later.

I needed to chase more of this feeling, and I craved control of the situation. I shoved him on his back, and I dropped over him and took his mouth with mine before any protest could fall from his lips. He drew his hips in search of mine. And when I gave him what he craved, he groaned into my mouth. Now, this was the side of my best friend I wasn't supposed to see, but why did I love it so much? He was begging me with his body, and the way he responded to me, I was losing control.

"Ace." He whimpered through the kiss, and it did things to my insides. My heart was racing at unhealthy speeds. "More. Please."

I growled, nudging his chin with the side of my face. He exposed his neck for me, and I ran my tongue along his warm skin. "I will give you more." He shuddered underneath me before I bit the lobe of his ear. "You taste delectable."

He moaned softly, and that was the moment I carefully nipped at the skin of his neck in several different places. He continued to grind against me, and I couldn't tell anyone how much I welcomed it. Not because I regret it but because the feeling was too amazing to put into words. Cade unlocked something inside of me that I never realized existed, and being confused still could wait. I'll talk this out later. I had him below me, begging for more, and who the fuck was I to deny him?

Cade's arms wrapped around my neck, and his fingers dug into my back as he panted in my ear. I suppose it had been a while for both of us. Because I was about to blow like a hormone-crazed teenager from the way he moved against me. I decided I had enough exploration of his neck and wanted to feel his lips on mine again. I dove right back in, and he opened for me to dip my tongue inside his mouth.