IT GIRL ((URBAN)

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      Dear Diary,

People think that know what it takes to be an "IT GIRL" but they have no idea what goes on behind the scenes. They don't understand what goes into this lifestyle. All they see is the glitz and glam. They don't know what this lifestyle consist of. I don't know if I would've still chose this path. Sometimes I feel like this path was written in stone for me. It was given to me, and it completely out of my control. You can't control the algorithms you can't control how people perceive you or the things that you do. You can't control the stats. The only thing you can control is what you put out, but what happens when you're no longer in control of the content that you put into the world what happens when you wanna run away when you just wanna be alone but because you are who you are, you could never truly be alone because you always are being watched by the public. It's been so many times Young girls have written me and  told me that I'm their idol told me that they want to be just like me told me that they look up to me, but only if they knew only if they knew.

"Hey baby are you almost dressed we have a busy day ahead of us" , said Derrick . Derrick had been my boyfriend for 2 years . We met in 2018 when we went on an influencers trip to Bermuda . He was the sweetest gentleman. He bought me everything & anything my heart desired. Flowers, dresses , shoes , watches , trips he had no limit to the lengths he would go to make me happy. However,  he had a dark side . 

       Derrick was about 6 feet tall weighing 240 pounds of pure muscle. Light skinned & had the prettiest white teeth I had ever seen. Back then I was just starting to get my feet wet in the content creator industry so I wasn't used to the flashy cars & houses. Derrick exposed me to a brand new lifestyle and he reminded me every chance he got. When we first met, Derrick  was the sweetest man I had ever met, but then something changed. You know how they say "fame changes people" well I don't know if that was the case but something most definitely did change.

"Yeah, baby I'm ready just writing down some YouTube ideas" , I replied.

        My diary was a scared place. I wrote down every thought . It's the only place I could be vulnerable. In this industry you don't know who to trust . It's seems like people always want something from you. I learned early on in my career it's best to keep things to yourself and handle your own situations the best way you can . So I keep a journal and just write down all my thoughts. My journal & Tyrese were my escape. You may be wondering who is Tyrese . Well I'll tell you Tyrese is Me & Derricks security guard. We've become so close over the years . Since Derrick doesn't let me have any friends outside of him. Tyrese is  all I have .

    "Good , Tyrese should be here in 20 minutes yo pick you up. I would go but I have some business to handle and this would be a good way for you to start your roll out and get the fans ready for our new tv show", said Derrick.

    "Ok and I agree I'm so excited for this new journey baby" , I said .

             Me & Derrick had just been chosen maybe a week or so ago to start this new tv show. I was happy because this means he would stay off of me and I would get less beatings. Last year I stayed in the hospital. You may be asking why are you still with him . I love him & it's not as easy to walk away as you think. We have accumulated over 10M followers across all platforms and make over $2M+ a year .
       Our relationship is more of a business if anything but Derrick won't let me go. I've tried to leave numerous of times. He's broken my nose , blackened my eyes , broken my ribs from throwing me down the stairs and I know this sounds crazy but you would never understand unless you were in it . Also,  most importantly everything is in his name.
"Well, I'll see you later" Derrick said. As he walked out of our bedroom.
       

           I began to gather my things . I was wearing a black shirt with a black jacket and some black pants with some black Gucci heels . I was going to a brunch so I wanted to keep it simple but cute. 

           Being an influencer is all about aesthetics. It's good to stay up on the latest trends if you want to stay on the for you page  . The best part is you get to set the trends most of the time. However, you don't know how the algorithm will flow . Some people try to study it . Some people actually  go to the highest of extermes  understand it but me personally? I've created a name for myself. People know my face and my work so all I really have to do is show up . 

     Which is a blessing but still stressful because most days I don't want to show up . I just want to disappear.

       " You ready to go", said Tyrese . He was Tall maybe about 6"2, Darkskinned , 200 pounds and very handsome.
"Oh , so you not gone give me a hug" , I said .
"Yo boy left", said Tyrese.
"Yeah, he's gone" , I said .
Tyrese walked up to me and hugged me so tightly . I loved his hugs and he always smelled so good. I could just eat him alive.

   "You smell good" , I said . 

"Thank you baby", said Tyrese. He grabbed my face and kissed me sticking his tounge down my throat . I could feel my pussy throbbing . I wanted him .

"Stop ,be cause will be late" , I said .

      "We can fuck right now or in the car" , Tyrese said . Tyrese walked me towards the bed . As I feel unto the bed he started to unbuckle his pants. I unbuckled and pulled down mines and he started to kiss all over me. 

      Kissing on my stomach and began to eat my pussy as if it was his last supper . I started to moan loudly . I grabbed his head and shoved it into my pussy and he continued to suck on my clit . He came up and kissed me in my mouth  slowly  slipping his dick inside me . I pulled him close to me and he began to stroke . As he was thrusting and pounding my pussy I could feel myself beginning to climax.

I loved this man and I wanted to run away and be with him.