BITTER END ☆ wrestling rambles

DYNAMITE THINGS AH

Greetings ye travelers.  Morale is low in these here parts, but I'm doing my darnedest to keep spirits raised :,)

And oh boy, how I mean that in an Oregon Trail game type way, and not in a Chase U student section way 🧍

BUT ANYWAY.  GONNA IGNORE THE IMPOSTER SYNDROME AND POWER THROUGH THIS ONE

OKAY OKAY IM VERY EXCITED. CAUSE IM GOING TO AEW'S OKLAHOMA DEBUT DYNAMITE/RAMPAGE. THIS WEDNESDAY.  DECEMBER 20TH.  WHICH I MENTIONED BEFORE

And unfortunately I must give a disclaimer :/ I might as well tell you the whole story so you can understand.

I am very paranoid about people thinking I am bragging about something, when in reality, I'm just an excited lil guy who wants to share my excitement with people :( the paranoia is due to an old internet "friend" of mine.  I had seen Fall Out Boy and took some really cool photos.  I was posting them because I was excited and wanted to share the cool photos with stan Twitter!  (stan Twitter... *shudders*).  My friend had seen FOB twice already that tour, yet he was mad and said I was bragging and showing off :/  very much OH BROTHER THIS GUY STINKS moment.  I'm not friends with him anymore 🧍

But, that situation made me really sad, anxious, and angry that my alleged friend would say that kind of thing about me simply being excited over a band we mutually loved.

BUT THIS IS WHY IM SCARED TO TALK ABOUT THIS. That happened five years ago but it changed me forever 😭  and I simply cannot get past it, but I wish I could :,)

I just want you to know I'm not bragging or trying to show off. I'm seriously just a very easily excited person.  I hope that was obvious, but I don't trust that anyone will ever assume I'm just a silly guy.  I'm truly a goose of the silly variety, who happens to be autistic and really really loves wrestling and music and history things !

NOW THAT I DROPPED THAT BAGGAGE ON THE INTERWEBS

I will definitely be on camera some 🤭  WHICH LIKE ??? 😭😭  I have never gotten seats like this for a wrestling show before and my brain cannot comprehend it.  Like I cannot even try to imagine what it's going to be like.  IM SO EXCITEDDAHHEHS

AND THE MATCHES ARF ARF ARF

First of all, Riho <3  second of all, RODERICK STRONG VS. KOMANDER AAAAHHEJS.  And third ... Mox vs. Jay White 😭

AND IDK ANYTHING THATS HAPPENING ON RAMPAGE.  I'll be so tired by the time Rampage is on, if I've learned anything from when I went to Collision in Wichita

IM RAMBLING IM RAMBLING AH

There's a thing I want to bring up BUT IM NOT GOING TO SAY IT.  I don't want to get my hopes up, but also I don't want to jinx it 🧍 

BUUUUT BUT BUT.  FOR FUN.  IF YOU WANNA SPOT ME I GOTTA SHOW YOU HOW MY FRESHLY DYED HAIR LOOKS !! And also, outfit spoiler. Incase this helps. Y'know.

Lil face reveal sorta I guess 🤭

I'm going to be looking a liiiittle bit too myself for this show.  BUT THATS FINE TEHE.  I might also have a purple Santa hat to match my vest and belt!!  And maaaybe a light up Christmas light necklace.  BUT IM NOT SURE YET.  ILL SEE

Also if you see a sign that says "I <3 Roddy" that is my brother 😭😭

I DONT KNOW IF THIS IS FUN TO OTHER PEOPLE. Like I love knowing when other people go to wrestling shows. But also my bestest friends are really supportive and curious people, despite not being wrestling fans, and they love learning wrestling stuff from me and they watch the shows I go to :,) I love and cherish them so much gosh 😭 they're so funny too, they saw Carlito get jumped during the Smackdown I went to and they still love getting updates anytime he is on 😭😭 they also love Pretty Deadly ofc 🤭  they'll stan anyone I like

I THINK IM IN MY FEELS SORRY EEK

ANYWAY ANYWAY

I just wanted to talk about this because I'm excited. And talking about things I'm excited about is a serotonin boost, and I always need those :,)

I'm thankful my dad decided to spoil himself for his birthday and bought these tickets.  Also very thankful that I don't have to drive an hour and a half + for a show this time 😭

I don't want to be annoying and post another chapter about Dynamite/Rampage, but I might anyways.  Sometimes I gotta remind myself this is my book and I can do whatever I want 🧍

I really don't want to be annoying tho :/  I always feel annoying.  And I've tried to write something about this multiple times, but I always get too freaked out to actually be honest about how annoying I feel by posting.  My brain is unfortunately coded to think I am always being a nuisance, even if I'm not doing anything wrong.

It's actually so difficult to admit, because once again, I don't want it to seem like I'm striving for attention.  I'm an insecure guy with imposter syndrome and a need for validation :(

Did not think this chapter would turn into me talking about serious things, so IM SORRY AH. 

To end on a positive note, I am very excited that on Smackdown there will be Dragon Lee vs. Butch for the North American Championship :D  GONNA EAT THAT UPPP.  Just like I ate up Dragon Lee vs. Tyler Bate 🤭

Also my phone always autocorrects Butch to Bitch 💔

Happy holidays <3  BYE BYE