Walking away from you

Walking away

Walking away from you
Walking away from you means I am disabled .
Walking away from you means I can't breathe .
Frozen .. stuck ... unable to .
As if the two feet I was born with have worked all my life to get back up .
After everything I've been through ,to stand on them means victory .
To not have fallen off that cliff ,but when it comes to using them against you ....
Broken
They need to be sent back to the factory ,give me a new pair because these don't work ,apparently these won't step ,won't shift ,won't even make a sound away from you.
To the point of crawling ,but simply even then I can't move . Why is it that something so simple I can do on a daily basis I can walk away from many things and trauma that I've been dealt but you .... You are impossible .
Walking away from you is not in my dictionary .I simply can't move ,my feet stuck solid , to the ground as if your abuse was concrete just poured onto me and it's already hardened . Did u know what u were doing all along ? How many times when the concrete was wet I picked a leg up but told myself stay put he needs u so I did . So many nights I cried alone and felt worthless because of your venom .. and all u do is bite . You are not liable for what you've broke I am . And I can deal with the pain. Of losing u if only I could walk .
Walking away from you will forever be a dream I cannot live in . I realized this race I keep running in just waiting for a water break isn't a race anymore because on the side everything I do to make u smile I take away from myself .I am not running a race anymore I have been stuck in the same position as I was when I walked into ur life . And now ... walking away from you is harder than trying to catch my breath when drowning . I always find an excuse for u even when there shouldn't be one . You project your feelings onto me as if I am a mirror ur screaming at cause of ur self loathing but soon this mirror will break but I will stand still waiting for the day my feet detach themselves because I simply can't stand up anymore