Blossoming Love

TW: Family Dynamics

Meet Sammy. She's been my crush since elementary. I thought at first that it wasn't normal because I'm a girl and SHE'S also a girl. I was so scared that I was different.

Different from other girls who like boys.

Different from other girls who are into BOYS.

I was scared.

Then highschool came.

I found out about the other genders. I figured maybe I was lesbian. It was... A scary experience.

I didn't know what to FEEL, what to SAY to my parents.

I'm scared they won't accept me.

It was very hard to open up to my parents because I was scared that maybe they wouldn't accept me. Maybe they won't call me their daughter anymore.

I'm scared that they would say;

'What happened to my daughter?'

'I have no lesbian daughter'

'You used to be perfect'

'What happened to you?'

I was their only daughter.

So I slowly started being distant from them. I'm sure they noticed that.

Senior high finally came, me and Sammy are still classmates.

It's hurting me.

I came into a conclusion that she's straight. That she's into guys.

I don't know how I jumped to that conclusion but yes.

Maybe.

Maybe it's time to give up on her.

I didn't know what to do. I started crying. I cried too loudly I couldn't hear the door in my room open. My mom saw me and I was greeted with her worried expression.

"Azalea! What happened?!" She immediately came to me and hugged me.

I hugged her back and cried on her shoulder. I missed this.

I missed her hugs.

"Let it out, you can tell me what's wrong sweety." She told me while rubbing my back, "I-" I choked through my tears.

"It's okay to take your time." She said, comforting me and giving me the love I've always longed for ever since I distanced from her. "I... Mom... I..." I sobbed out, I couldn't handle it anymore. "I'm here, I'm listening." She rubbed my back to calm me down.

"Mom... I... I like someone..." "Oh honey, that's fine. That's normal." I shook my head in disagreement. "No... Y-you don't understand..." I sniffled out

"How so?" she said, confused.

I stayed quiet.

My room was quiet. All you could hear was my quiet sobs and sniffles.

"Mom... I... The person," I could barely speak, I was too scared and nervous. "Hmm?"

"t-the person I like, i-is a... Girl" I finally let it out.

It was quiet.

SHE became quiet.

I'm scared.

I'm scared of what she's gonna say.

That her only daughter is... Lesbian.

Will she disown me?

Will she be disappointed?