Too much thinking

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What happens if I make the sky more beautiful for you? Would you even care if i'm not here anymore? Am I as important in your life, as you are in mine? Or am I just a person you stay with because you can't tell me you don't like me anymore?

When you ask Carla if she's alright she will say yes, but actually this is what's in her mind. She's a hurt child. She knows how it feels to be alone and have no one to talk to. Carla tries to offer love to everybody and makes others feel good about themselves. This makes her happy, but is this enough for her? She wishes it was, but her heart knows it isn't. She wants to feel loved. Not necessarily the type of love a boyfriend or a girlfriend has to offer. Yes, she wants to feel that type of love, but what her heart desires the most is the type of love a friend has to offer. She feels like she's suffocating everyone. Carla can look fine from the outside, but inside her head the only words she hears are that she's not enough, that she's annoying and maybe it's better if she just dies and lets everyone live their lives. Is it that bad if she dies? No one would care more than two days. She really hopes that it isn't true and that the people she would give her life for, would care even a bit.

Why would such a beautiful soul think that about herself? Yes, she's kinda lonely, but if she would stop overthink so much and just look a little bit around, she will see that there are people that care about her more that she thinks.

As the writer of Carla's story, if I could answer her first question...If you make the sky more beautiful for that person, don't think that they won't care. They love you more that you can imagine...Just stay for a second and think about the fact that maybe they think the same as you..that they are not enough for you...so please just stop overthink every little thing...just for a second and realize that you are enough, and if someone doesn't like you...it's not the end of the world..