Dear Life

Dear Pain

Dear Pain,

You're tricky to figure out. A lot of people would say that pain and loss are the same thing but it's not. Pain is something much deeper than loss in my opinion. Loss can cause pain and pain can cause loss, sometimes. So I guess there is no higher one or deeper one, they are equal. It's like they were made to be together. But I think they contradict each other. Too much pain leads to loss and too much loss leads to pain. Either way, you lose. Either way, there is no way to outrun them. Either way- they're infinite. 

There is always going to be someone or something that's going to cause you pain and I think once you accept that, you become numb - at peace - with that fact and I think people could live happier lives. But sometimes I think that the thought that there is always going to be pain doesn't motivate people, it hurts them worse than what they were before and that, well is something entirely different. 

I think with that mindset, you're scared of getting hurt and you end up hurting yourself in the long run. But if you accept the fact that there will always be pain, loss, and suffering, you can focus on the good more and not let all the bad things clog your mind. But sometimes it's okay for your brain to be clogged up with all the hate and sadness of the world. Healthy even. I'm not saying that you would be immune to pain if you accepted that you're always going to have some pain, you would grow numb to the thought. But being numb isn't healthy. I think sometimes it's a coping mechanism, which isn't healthy. But if you grow numb to certain topics that trigger you or certain ideas that trigger you, I think you could be a lot happier. So all of this to say, pain is infinite and so is loss and that sucks but there is always a rainbow after a storm, even when you can't see it.