i stormed in my room, i got mad. i dont wanna hear about how much i need help. im fine? am i? its whatever, my dad complains too much. mr's sandler doesn't care. shes there to get paid. its already 6:30 and dad hasn't started supper, i thought maybe i upset him too much. but i don't care. i grabbed my phone and called dakota, i was mad and sad and so many emotions rushed in my head. " hey dakota.. are you busy?" " no whats wrong ju?".. " just keep your window open, ill be there shortly." i hung up. "junebug, dinners ready." i walk into the kitchen, its me and vera at the dinner table. dad sighed and grabbed a beer out the fridge, vera barely touched her food. supper was so lame. i finished my carrot and tomato soup and changed my clothes, i packed a off the shoulder white shirt, black skin tight leggings, my gloves, my hat, leg warmers. i shoved all of it in my school bag, i went in veras room and kissed her goodnight, " vi, ill be back tommorrow morning ok? i love you." "why are you leaving nanay? i don't want you to go, take me with you nanay." she cries out. i felt bad but i kissed her forehead again, and left. i climbed out my window and pulled the stairs down. i look back and left. i walked to dakota's house. knocked on the window twice. "gosh ju, you scared me " he laughs. "oh my goshh kota, hush." i laid in his bed, i looked at him and he looked at me. i carassed the side of his face, making tension in the room. dakota slides his hand up and down my thighs, he draws his lips into mines. we kiss, he turns me over. "ju, i love you" he said taking my hoodie off, his soft hands rubbed up and down on my body, his kisses, the way he loved. i fell asleep on his chest, his alarm went off. "ahh shit, ju, my love." i yawn, " yeah kota?" " we gotta go to school my love." i changed, i deciced to wear my hair up, nobody sees my hair up. " gosh, ju you look beautiful." i giggle, " thanks kotie." we go to school, our first block is pre alegbra 1, i didn't want to take some test. my phone beeps. shit. it's dad.
dad- where were you?
dad- junebug, please respond.
dad- juju, im sorry about last night.
june- at dakotas house, i was mad. goodbye.
dad- june eloise. i want you to know, mom never wanted this. i love you.
i can't believe he brought up mom? you didn't care or love mom. you only cared of the thought of her, the idea of mom. he only loved the thought of having marie rose abarhams. my mom. we can go into my mom and what she went through.
it all started in march, i was like i don't know 3. when everything happened. dad was a terrible drunkie who never cared. basically this is when we lived in california. " gosh marie! are you fucking dumb." "honey, june is in the other room. s-stop please" tears filled my moms eyes. "marie." he walks over to her, he threw a chair at her. he missed "ARE YOU KIDDING ME HENRY. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU." she went into my room, june we are leaving. dad walks in. " you will not be taking june," "well she's not staying with you henry, your fucking mental." dad hits her again. she leaves, our mom took us to stay with cousin lilian.
but back to pre alegbra 1.
i sat next to sydney today, i kept looking at dakota, dakota, dakota. dakota sat next to his friend chris, chris whispered into dakota ear " no way, you're dating june.. her dads a drunkie." i sat right behind them, i threw a paper ball and said " you don't know shit you fuckface." i got up and left the class. "june, do NOT leave the class." i left anyways.. "gosh chris do you ever shut up?" sydney said. chris giggled about it with dakota. i sat outside class crying, nova came out the class and sat next to me and hugged me. "juju, whats going on?" i replied " why does everyone know about my father?" nova sighed," oh girl haven't you heard, evangline submitted it on the schools page." i went blank again. i wanted to pull my razor out, but nova would've told my dad. tears fill my eyes, " its always evangline, i want her to leave me alone." the bell rang, dakota came outside. he kissed my cheek wiping my tears away. "baby, im sorry, we can go home now if you want..?" i kissed him back. " would love that, but can we stop at my apartment?" "why?" "im taking vera with me till my father can get his shit together." we took the train back. "vera pack up we are leaving." vera was happy and i could tell, im glad to see vera happy, i was happy. "nanay, will daddy beat us?" i sighed, " i don't know.'' but we left. i carried vera out the front door, vera looks up at me. "nanay, can we get ice cream?" i look at dakota, i don't have money but im sure dakota would. " hey kota.. do you uhm.. have money?" "why?" he replied. "oh because vi wants some." "yeah i do, we can stop at mrs rosewoods ice cream palace, its sooo good." "ooo, we can stop there it sounds yummy!" "uh june, i have a question?" "yeah? whats up?" " why does vera call you nanay?" .. gosh, i wanted to cry right there and then. but i had to tell him. "oh, well when our mom was alive, vera was like 4 years old, we lived in canada, so basically my mom would call me nana. because of our grandma, (naniana nora abahrams.) so i resemebled my grandma alot, so after she passed thats when she started calling me nana, but vera started putting a y at the end" i giggle, i guess only vera, priscilla and my grandpa calls me that." "oh, sorry for your loss. but uh whos priscilla?" the train dings, i keep explaining to him as we walk. "so cilla, she was our mom's best friend, she entered the world with our mom and left with her. so priscilla was there whenever our dad had problems. gosh i wish she was alive, she was like a open house for me, i was like 10 it was the year our mom passed away, it was me and dad at home.. he beat me because he was mad. i would always page cilla to pick me up. she'd be right there, with open arms." " ju, if you don't mind me asking, how did your mom pass?" after we grabbed ice cream we sat at the park, so i decided to explain it. " so again, i was 10 at the time. our mom got into a arguement with our father, it all started when our dad got drunk, he came home at 11:30 pm, he was supposed to be home by 9:30. my mom smelt the perfume he had on his neck, and the lipstick on his blouser. my mom got angry and smacked him, "yk what im done. im fucking over it, henry you do not care for this relationship whatsoever. im done with you; and you're behavior henry you are mental." my dad got angry and picked up scissors and threw it at our mom, he merely missed. so thats when my mom took me and my sister to stay with priscilla. we left, so it was 1:45 am, the doorbell rung 5 times. it was henry, he had a loaded gun. he planned to kill my mom. i was sleeping on the couch i woke up to my mom telling to go hide in the closet. "mommy, is everything ok?" "nanay, it is ok, i promise." henry entered the home himself, priscilla called 911, "marie, get the kids. he has a gun.'' henry forced his way in again, he held the gun up to my moms face. "you know what, i have been cheating on you, you fat bitch. i want the fucking kids. they belong to me." "no, henry can't you get it. you are a drunk, mentally unstable, and most importanly you cannot handle vera and junie alone." "what the fuck do you mean?" he held the gun up to her neck, breathing slowly on my moms ears. "where are they?" it was slient for a good 2 minutes. he got angrier. " marie, where the FUCK are kids?" my mom than pointed to the closet, there we were. he shot right in her face, he killed her right on the spot. i felt the tear beginning to form as i watched my dad shot my mother. yet again i was only 10 years old. i didn't want to see that, priscilla saw my mom dead, she called 911. priscilla held my hand and told me to go, thats when priscilla went upstairs and shot herself, i took vera and we ran. police saw us on the sidewalk. that's when our dad gained custody, nobody ever found my mom nor priscilla." i teared up finishing my setence, dakota pulled me in and kissed me again. "nanay!! look a puppy!" vera went up to chase it, next thing you know vera started coughing, within a blink of an eye vera got herself worked up.
