Oct. 20
Dear Louis,
They keep taking this away from me. I don't know how I actually coped for this long. Ten days without this. You're still in a coma Lou. I still cant see you and to be honest, its killing me inside. The boys have given upon me and quite frankly I don't blame them. I would've given up on myself a long time ago if I were them but no. They decide to do that right now. I'm scared Louis. I hate being alone in this flat. I feel like you're watching me, but you wont say anything. Can you sing to me? I would kill to her your voice, even though you're probably stuck in your body. I want to see you. I think I've lost weight. No, I know Ive lost weight. Im starting to fit your clothes, Lou. I think that's pretty funny but I hardly laugh anymore, or smile. You were the cause of my smiles and laughter. I cant do it anymore. Niall said we have an interview today, a One Direction interview. But it's not One Direction without you. We're just Niall, Liam, Zayn, and Harry. I suppose I should get ready, yeah? But I don't want to go. Maybe ill bring this along and write in it there. I think that's what I will do and when we go on I'll lock it in my dressing room because this is for your eyes and mine only. I'll talk to you later I have to get ready.
Harry.x
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OH MY FUCKING GOD SHOOT ME IN THE FACE I HAD SO MUCHWRITTEN AND WHEN IT POSTED IT WENT ALL AWAY SHOOT ME IN THE DAMN HEAD KILL ME NOW
