Rhetorical Questions | Jake enhypen ff

Dear Diary (Gia's pov)

Dear Diary,
January 22

Today marked my first day of high school! I thought it'd be more like "High School Musical," but it feels more like "Euphoria" for some reason. Let me tell you about someone I met—Jake. He's tall with brown hair framing his face. His eyes are a deep brown, like they hold a story. He gives off a friendly vibe, almost like the warmth from a golden retriever. Funny thing, he mentioned his dog, Layla, who's also a golden retriever. It's a bit strange, but in a charming way. But... something strange happened. It all started when Jake sat next to me. A unique feeling passed through my body when I glimpsed his smile. I found so much comfort in that smile. It's a feeling I've never had before. Does this mean I find comfort in Jake? Do I have a crush on him?

"Gosh Y/N! Why did you write so cringe like this?" I sighed. I'm paging through my diary that I've kept with me through high school to mark the important memories of my youth so someday, I could give it to my children, allowing them a glimpse into my life. Yet, this whole diary seems to revolve around Jake.

Dear Diary,
July 25

I HATE MATH. Like math can solve its own problems at this point. Why should I care? Well... Jake LOVES math. He's at the top of the class. I've never seen him not get 100%. Today he decided to help me study for Monday's exam since it counts 75% of our term mark. We studied in the library. He explained every detail to me perfectly, and I'm pretty sure I understood everything. However, I wanted to spend more time with Jake, so I pretended to be clueless for a little while. I noticed that his eyes shine whenever he talks about something he loves, like math for example. The way he talks about his family, Layla, and music. I don't know how he talks about me to other people. Do his eyes shine the same way when he talks about me?

I closed my diary. I couldn't believe what I had just read. These were the early days of my feelings for Jake, and they only grew over time.

It's been 4 years since I've wrote this and Im in my last year of high school. (FINALLY) But Jake left school last year to go back to South Korea. I've missed him terribly since then because I never got to confess my feelings to him. I couldn't even read the rest of the diary. Why did he leave without telling me why?

I would always joke around with Jake and say, "maybe you should become a kpop idol!" And we'd laugh about it but i don't know maybe he'd consider it since he will be spending the rest of his life there. He always said he wanted to be like Justin Bieber and even laughed when I told him about how my 10th birthday cake had a picture of Justin Bieber on it.

That reminds me of this one diary entry I wrote...

Dear diary
December 24

🎶I dont wanna miss out on the holiday.. but i cant stop staring at your face🎶

Today Jake sang a song for me. When i tell you his voice is angelic I'm not lying. We sat at the fireplace at his house after watching some Christmas movies. He was finally ready to sing a song for me after saying no for the past 2 years. That was the first time i heard him sing. In that moment I could only focus on his voice and how beautiful he looked and how much joy singing brought to him. He sang mistletoe by Justin Bieber and I couldn't help but think he was singing about me... Am i going crazy?

"Young love," I scoffed. Being in love at a young age is so beautiful yet causes so much pain. I wish he never left. I wish i continued to write about him. Where are you Jake? Are you thinking about me?

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