Lost Lovers

3

Even if I liked the moment, I really shouldn't have kissed Asher. My night was a blurry mess of failing miserably at trying to fall asleep, my mind replaying that angelical moment like a broken disc. I keep asking myself why he doesn't leave my mind, the thought of him almost unbearable at the moment. Why do pretty people suck always? I should really go to sleep because my mother organized a small party during the afternoon, but it was almost four in the morning and Asher insisted on marking his place in my head. I got up, deciding that a small walk around the house and a cup of warm milk could help me fall asleep. Upon entering the kitchen I found Elani sitting on the floor, hugging her legs and her head resting on her knees.

-"Hey... What's wrong Ela?"- I whispered, not wanting to wake anybody else.

-"Everything"- She replied, her voice wobbly from crying. I sat on her side and hugged her. That's when she exploded. Her crying became louder and she hugged me stronger, her tears stained my pajamas but I didn't care. Living like we do is tiring, but I never knew that my sister was this tired of living like this.

-"I just want to disappear, but I don't want to die"- She cried

-"I know it's hard Ela. I'm also tired of all this"

-"Then why don't you do anything? You're always saying that we will run away together, but you never end up doing it! Stop lying to me, it hurts"- She shouted. My first reaction was to look at the doors, scared that she might have awakened somebody.

-"It's not that easy"- I said calmly, not wanting to fuel her anger.

-"Then make it easier. I don't want to live like this for another year"- I looked at her teary eyes and red swollen face. I didn't know what to answer because she was right. I was not trying enough. For the last two years I've been walking under the line, doing nothing to help my sister but comforting her. I promised her but I've been doing nothing to keep it.

-"I promise that I'll try harder this time. This time is serious"- I said. Elani didn't seem to believe me, but looked like she was ok to give me a second chance. I got up and grabbed Elanis' hand, pulling her upwards, and hugged her tightly.

-"I promise I'll be everything that I haven't been"- I whispered. We hugged there for a bit longer before I felt her push me away -"My room or yours?"

-"I think I'll be good for today. No need to be with me"- She said. I waved her goodbye when we stopped by her door and waited for the door to close before finishing the route to my room. I felt like she was still mad at me but I preferred not to interfere. I took a quick shower, for once not bothering to do anything else before going to bed and falling deeply asleep.

I woke up to a pillow being thrown at my face and someone jumping enthusiastically in my bed. I opened my eyes, being blinded almost instantly by the light from outside. A black haired girl, who I almost immediately recognized as Catherine was on top of me, trying to fully wake me up. On the other side of the room, the small brunette was opening the window curtains, making it way harder for me to keep my eyes open.

-"It's ten in the morning lazy head"- Cory said, opening the last curtain before pulling the sheets off. As usual, the brunette walks up to the vinyl shelf, choosing the same as always. I felt someone sitting beside me so I turned my head to see, surprisingly, my sister, laughing at Caths' hysterical jumping.

-"They invited me to come with them and annoy you since I was alone in the living room"- She explained through laughs. I was happy that Elani was having fun, even after crying her eyes out during the early hours.

-"I was thinking we could do something today. Instead of staying here for the whole day like we usually do"- Cath proclaimed, sitting by my feet.

-"I was thinking about sleeping all day, but you guys ruined my idea"- I said, crossing my arms above my chest.

-"And we did the right thing"- Cory laughed

-"Will you be joining us Ela?"- I asked, turning my attention to my sister

-"No, as much as I would want to, mom told me I needed new dresses, so I'm going with her"- She replied, rolling her eyes. I nodded, getting up and entering the bathroom to take a quick shower and dressing up. I opted for a short sleeved black shirt with some lettering on the back and some cargo I had laying on the floor, not wanting to look too fancy, since both Cath and Cory were wearing more casual fits. I left the bathroom, my sister nowhere to be found, but Cory and Catherine were sitting in my bed, reading some magazines I had pilled over a corner. We left my room a bit after, not wanting to let the whole morning go to waste.

The village was the best thing we could do for the morning, spending the last few hours walking around the countless stores and merchants minding their own business or talking to clients. Catherine ended up buying a few new clothes and Cory some new fantasy books that he had found interesting. We stopped for lunch in a nearby restaurant, taking our time eating and making a lot of jokes in the middle. After we left, Cory had the idea of exploring an abandoned building, located a few kilometres away from the village borders, to which me and Catherine agreed, thinking it would be a good idea to entertain ourselves during the afternoon. The building was totally rotten, some of its divisions already collapsed, but with its basement almost untouched somehow. Catherine was hugging me almost for the whole visit, too scared to explore on her own. On the other hand, Cory was totally into exploring the building, losing me and Cath a few times in the process. We slip up at around seven, being too late and too tired to do anything else. I reached home half an hour later, having made a quick stop at the bookstore to buy a new book and a few magazines, having nothing new to spend my free time doing at home. Besides being occupied the whole time, in those few times that I was more quiet my mind raced with thoughts about Asher, but I decided not to say anything to Cory or Catherine, not wanting to ruin the mood with my relationship problems. After dinner, I took a quick shower, not bothering to do any type of skincare before falling asleep in my bed.