Her Two Bosses (NaNoWriMo '23)

Comfortable Again

Selene and Evangeline sat at a table at the shop, sipping on their lattes and chatting about the latest things at the club. Evangeline wanted to keep the conversation light, but there was such a need to talk about serious things.

"Moonie, I don't know if I will ever be comfortable in my skin. I shower and get dress in the dark. I haven't let Rake or Leo touch me since I was... will I ever be whole again?" Evangeline asked, looking at the slightly older woman for advice.

"Did I ever tell you how I met Lou?" Selene asked. Evangeline shook her head. "Well, I was a freshman in college, and he was a junior at the time. Full football scholarship and was already being scouted by NFL teams. Like any college freshman student, I got drunk at a party and...I was rape by two of the football players." Selene set her drink down.

"What?" Evangeline whispered. Selene nodded her head. "Lou..."

"Walks in the bedroom, looking for his friends. He realized right away I was not able to consent any of it. He fought his friends, picked me up out of the bed, and took me straight to the hospital. Lou even called the police to report what he witnessed. He did not even know me but stay until my parents got there to make sure I was going to be okay." Selene wiped a tear from her face.

"What happen afterwards? With the report and Lou?" Evangeline asked.

Selene shook her head. "Those friends were rich boys and had connects. It was their words against mine and I was just a silly girl who got too drunk, dressed too sexy, and asked for it." Selene took a breath. "Lou was ready to fight for me. He would not let it go. Suddenly, the scholarship was taken from him due to actions unbecoming of a sportsman and he was kicked out of the college. The NFL teams stopped contacting him. Lou lost everything because he was trying to do the right thing." Selene looked down at the table.

Evangeline sat in silence, absorbing all that Selene told her. Selene was never one to talk about her past, only that her and Lou had been together for now twenty years. Selene took a napkin from the holder and dried her face. Evangeline reached for Selene's hand. Selene gave her a small smile, placing her hand in Evangeline's.

"I dropped out of college. I could not stand the looks people gave me. What they call me. A whore. Slut. People were so eager to believe those assholes because they had money to toss about. Lou stayed in contact with me. It was nothing for him to call to chat, go eat, and let me cry on his shoulder. He became my best friend. Lou got the bouncer job at the Velvet Rose due to his size and reputation of not backing down to anyone. I needed work because my parents give me ultimatum of find a job or get kicked out since I left school. Lou got me hired as a waitress."

"How did you feel, working there after what happen?" Evangeline asked cautionly.

"Fucking jealous." Selene's answer shocked her. "Those women were so free with their bodies, able to touch and show off. I wanted to feel good in my skin again. To touch my body without my hands shaking. I confined this in Lou. When I tell you that man is sent from Heaven, I am not joking. He talked to a few of the girls who had similar experiences. They became my support. They help me be okay with owning my body again. I started dancing and learning to love myself again."

"What about ...you know?" Evangeline asked, hoping she was not crossing the line.

"Lou. My baby, Lou. He was the one who...help." Selene giggled. "I was a virgin when I was raped, so I do not know what sex or love making was like. Lou held me in his arms, caressed me. Show me what intimacy between two people was like with clothes on. Just the sensation of being close. He never initiated anything. That was the control he wanted me to have. To let me say yes. To share myself with him. I am not going to lie. After the first time we made love, I packed all my shit from my parents' house and move in. And Lou helped load up my car. Yes, we met in the most fucked up way possible, but we were able to make a great life together." Selene smiled, showing Evangeline an old picture of the two that she had saved in her phone. It was the day Selene moved into Lou's first apartment. They were sitting in the front seat of her old car with stacks of boxes in the back. They were kissing for the selfie.

"I want that again. To be comfortable in my body, to make love to Rake and Leo. To...fucking live." Evangeline took a breath.

"And you will. That tattoo on your hip is the reminder that needs to go. I know a great tattoo artist..."

"No. I don't just want to cover it. I need it gone off my body. I want...I want... I want to slice my skin off and shove it straight up Primo's ass well the motherfucker is choking on a horse dick." Evangeline let her words fly from her lips.

"I don't know where we can get a horse, but...if you want to slice it off. I heard about it being done." Selene was at a loss for words. Evangeline smiled and then started to laugh about looking for some poor horse to make Primo suck off. Selene started to laugh, saying what do you tell the owner why you need their horse. The two women were laughing hysterically at the notion of hitching a trailer and everything.