you justify it to yourself every day, every second
define it, deny it
but you know, in your gut it's no use
the feeling you get when you use
it's worth it, you need it.
the dark brown blanket you know will descend
makes you feel like you're at the end
you tried it, you liked it,
you never though it would be this hard
it's a secret, you keep, with your life, you guard.
it exites you, ignites you
just to bring you back down
it didn't last as long this time,
don't think about the future. don't sweat the small stuff.
and by the way, it's all small stuff.
