The Dark Lotus: Dianthus

Chapter 1: My Idol

As the dark rises upon my soul, voices creep around me, as I dwell and reflect more on that specific incident. Let me take you back to before I became the fallen angel. It was the darkest years when I was still called Lady Dian Eliades of the Queen Pearl. My parents were the founders of Pearl City, and they gave birth to two beautiful baby girls. The eldest, is my sister, Lady Nia, People say she was the fairest of them all, the most beautiful lady in the city. All the attention goes to her, beauty isn't only what she has but also her brain. She was the smartest of all in her class. But when I came into her life it changed everything.

The moment I was born, I felt the love and compassion of everyone surrounding me at that moment and praising me like an angel being sent down from the heavens above. But it wasn't just the sugar love that I felt at that time, there was a slimy feeling at every dark corner I turned. I was too young to understand that feeling, so I brushed it off. Growing up in the Elidaes palace it was something that I will never forget. I wasn't that trouble-spoiled kid back then, I never complained about my duties and responsibilities at the palace. But for some reason, other kids showed more effort and wanted satisfaction from their parents, I wondered why I didn't feel the same way. I never tried to be the best just for my parents' satisfaction, it was different. The longer I walked down that hall in the palace, the longer I stared at that door, I felt that I wanted to be close to that person behind that door. Lady Nia, my older sister, in my eyes, was everything, the beauty, the brains, the power, she deserves the family's Lotus crest more than I. 

It was a new school year for me since I was the only one still studying. I took business class like my sister, I wanted to be like her, but now she has a business that is very well known all around the world. I never expected to make new friends, and accomplish a lot this year, and not just that, it even went better when Ethan Benz asked me to be his fiance. Ethan's family and I have been a long-term business partner, I have known Ethan since diapers, and we have been playmates and buddies in every school activity we had. The moment the news reached my parents, of course, they limped for joy, they held a grand ball for the both of us. I was excited actually, having this kind of experience and I feel this year was going to be a great year for me. The best part of everything was when my older sister came to my ball. I felt the best and I want to treasure this moment forever. 

Then I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder, I looked back to see who wanted my attention and it was Nia my older sister. I complimented her into the conference room where most family things occur since she asked to speak with me privately. 

Dian: oh my sister

I said with joy as it was the first time Nia would ever wanna talk to me since I had kept my eye on her ever since I was a baby.

Dian: How are you? are you enjoying the party? is there something wrong? Nia I hope you are proud of me, I kept looking -

I let my excitement take me away, but Nia cut me off with a cold direct stare

Nia: that's not the case here.

I felt my body getting cold, and my sweat going crazy as I felt the dark era around my sister. I was so curious what my sister had in her mind. 

Dian: Hmm.. so why did you wanna talk to me in private? Did something happen to you?

Nia: No, it's just that...

The noise of the party kept increasing in every minute that passed, it was getting intense for us both in that gloomy conference room. Nia's face was getting more horrified with every word that came out of her mouth, while I stood across her, shaking and fearing what she was thinking about all of this. I wanted her to be proud of me ever since I was a baby, she may not have been there by my side during my journey but became my idol. Nia my sister, was beautiful, smart, brave, and mysterious, she was so good at everything in my eyes. 

Nia: I despise you... Dian, from the moment you were born. In the bottom of my heart. I despise you...

Then, when everyone was celebrating my engagement party outdoors, fireworks burst, breaking my heart the instant they appeared. When I was born, my sister—the only sister I've ever had and the one I look up to the most—hated me. I was deeply sickened by her genuine interest in me. The idea that she detested and disapproved of me made me understand how unworthy I was even before I turned her into my idol.

Dian: but.. Nia I-

Nia: Don't you Nia me! You have no right to call me only by my first name you filthy witch!

I felt as though someone had taken a dagger to my heart with every word that she spoke. She smacked me when I wanted to play with her, and I had no idea how she felt about me since the day I was born. I used to believe that the way she distanced herself from me and caused me such agony during my childhood is how she loves me. She made me feel worthless so that I might become strong like her, but as I thought back on everything she had done and made the connection to the present, it dawned on me that everything she had done to me had been cruel. She had never loved me; all of her hate was the reason she had done it in the past.

Dian: Lady Nia... I praised you...I adored you....you were my inspiration! my idol! WHY!

For the first time in my life, I experienced such grief and suffering that I wished and prayed it was all a nightmare from which I might wake up. I started crying.

Nia: You took my spot!

Her voice was angry and her eyes were so full of jealousy that I felt like something about her was phony. As soon as she started talking, I sensed that the room had the same dismal, sticky aura that had wrapped me at birth. The more I observed the aura, the more I came to understand that...

Nia: people praised you! admired you! HOW DARE YOU! THAT SHOULD BE ME BEING PRAISED NOT YOU! You...you...FAME STEALER! 

Dian: I didn't take anything from you!

Nia: You took my Fame! my parents! my people!

Dian: I would never! I build my own life and world! I made sure what's yours is yours and mine is mine! 

Nia: Liar!

...My sister has hated me since I was born, according to the aura I previously sensed.

Dian: Nia...

Nia: THAT'S LADY NIA, YOU SCUMBAG!

Then, while I was trying to fend her off, she lunged at me, her hands around my neck, her death gaze.

Dian: NIA--Stop!!

She was too powerful until she put both of her fingers to my eyeballs and applied such pressure that the rest of my life would be spent blind.

Dian: AHHHH!!! NIA NOO!!!! STOP!!! I CAN'T SEE!!

My eyesight was all black, and I felt like I was weeping in anguish to the ground. I made a lot of effort to comprehend the circumstances I was in, but it was all blurry. I started weeping, but as soon as I touched my tears, I noticed they were dirty and that I was crying blood. I prayed and lay on the floor, screaming out in agony, hoping that it would simply go away. I never imagined that my sister would assault me in this manner in my final vision. The fact that this world could treat me cruelly when all I did was show kindness to everyone depressed me so much.

After several hours, I collected myself and waited for someone to locate and take me to the doctor. I sensed someone was with me as I waited, but I was too exhausted to say anything since I feared I was about to pass out from the commotion. However, I noticed a male figure handing me this lotus blossom. I made every effort to grab the flower

Dian: who..are...you--

But I was too weak to do so, and I passed out at that same moment, unable to tell if I had succeeded or not.

To be continued...