Dear:people with Pain and suicidal thoughts

The pain It hurts, I know but there is something good about it. It changes you. No, you don't get to choose your pain but it will make you stronger. Like pastor David Crosby once said "You do not get to choose the events that come your way nor the sorrows that interrupt your life. They will likely be a surprise to you, catching you off guard and unprepared. You may hold your head in your hands and lament your weak condition and wonder what you ought to do. To suffer is common to all. To suffer and still keep your composure, your faith, and your smile, is remarkable. Pain will change you more profoundly than success or good fortune. Suffering shapes your perception of life, your values and priorities, and your goals and dreams. Your pain is changing you.¨There is one example of infinity that pain changes you." Just keep on smiling and face the pain because if you give up the pain breaks you. If you give in to the pain then you will be in more pain then before It'll last so much longer and if you give in it never ends well.Don't give up.You'll get through this.Keep on smiling,face the pain. Once this is all over you will be so much stronger than before. Don't block out the people who care about you.You may think they don't care but they really do.Blocking them out thats one way to give in to the pain. Don't hate yourself please. Don't give in. You are beautiful and strong, you'll get through this. I promise and thats one promise I will keep because you may think I have no idea what your going through. But I do I really do. I was you once. I had those feelings and thoughts you do. I got through it though and I'm still here. You'll get through this I promise.Yes, I believe there are many types of pain,but I do not believe that there is one type of pain that hurts you and one that changes you. I believe that at the beginning of pain it hurts you and in the end, it'll change you and make you a better and stronger person. When I was going through this pain. I would come home from school and go straight to my room and shut my door. I would shut everyone out. I hated myself. I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up more than anything. I was cutting and hurting myself every single day after school. I tried to kill myself some of those times by cutting my wrists on the vein. I have so many scars now and I tried to kill myself cutting,sufacating but I could never do it. Because deep down I knew this isn't how I was meant to die. Please dont go to your room and shut your door. Don't shut out your loved ones. Don't hate yourself. Don't hurt yourself. This isn't how your meant to die. Not yet. You are perfect just the way you are. When you are getting scary thoughts or feel depressed just remember "Pain makes you stronger. Tears make you braver. Heartbreak makes you wiser."