Black Whisper

Minjun

Minjun P.O.V

My eyes fluttered open. I smiled at the feeling of heat against me. Kat's arms were wrapped around my waist and his legs were tangled with mine. I flinched at the pain in my ankle and rolled it a few times. I only realized when I looked down that I was sporting a hard-on. I sighed. I wondered if I'd ever stop getting hard when I slept with one of the guys. It's not like we did anything sexual. I was simply hard only because Kat was against me. What I didn't expect was that Kat was also hard. I could feel it against my thigh. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pressed my lips to his neck. He hummed as his eyes opened.

"Whatcha doing little one?" I huffed.

"It hurts." He raised a brow.

"Your ankle?" I bit my lip and shook my head. He looked down and smirked.

"Your dick hurts?" I nodded with a frown. He glimpsed at Zane's bed to make sure he was gone. He pulled me closer to him and pulled my right leg over his waist. This was a thing now. We never talked about it but it happened and we just let it be what it was. He slid his hands to my waist and pulled me against him. The added pressure made me whimper.

"Hyung." He pressed his lip to my neck. He wouldn't kiss my lips but he was more than happy to kiss everywhere else. I wanted to kiss his lips though. I wanted to be with him in every way possible but he didn't want that. I didn't know why and I didn't ask because if I did, things would change. He wouldn't touch me at all and I couldn't live with that.

"Grind against me, love." I did as he told me. He hummed at the pleasured noises that came out of my mouth. "You're so pretty, baby." The orgasm rose as I ground harder. My legs were shaky and my voice was quiet as I spoke.

"Kat Hyung..." He chuckled.

"Good boy." My entire body shuttered as I came against him. "You're so good for me little one." I wrapped my legs around his waist and sat up, straddling him. His eyes were bright.

"I want more." He sighed.

"We've talked about this." I shook my head.

"We haven't. We do this but I want more."

"Why?"

"Because I... I just do." I couldn't say it. I wanted to so badly but I was scared of the change.

"Don't lie to me, Minjun." I looked away and pulled myself off his lap.

"Never mind." I tried to stand but he grabbed my waist and pulled me between his legs.

"Minjun." He had me trapped. I tended to run away from serious conversations. He'd gotten used to this. I sighed.

"I don't want this to be it between us. I want you to love me or do nothing at all. My anxiety can't take these feelings. It's too much to dissect." He dug his hands into my sides and huffed.

"Minjun. You know how dangerous that is." I bit my lip.

"Dangerous or not, this isn't fair to me. You treat me like I'm your world but you keep me at arms length. Until you give me a reason for that, I don't see how this can be okay." I said, gesturing between the two of us. "You can't kiss me. You can't touch me. I'm not blind. I see what I do to you. " My eyes traveled down to the strain against his pajama pants. When I looked back up, his eyes were red. "Don't try to tell me you don't feel it too. At least physically." 

"It's not that I don't feel it. It's that I can't." I huffed.

"If that's the case, I'll find someone who can. I'm not doing this anymore." I tried to pull out of his grasp but failed. He was too strong. He grabbed my hand.