Don't Call Me Amy

Chapter 1: He's Dead

Amelia's Pov:

Every man that I've ever loved has died. How can that be? Why does God take such innocent, good people away. I don't know what to do, it's been almost a year since my brothers death and I haven't gotten it together.
Charlotte and Addison came as soon as they heard to check up on me and making me go to meetings because they think I'll relapse.

Meredith disappeared with the kids and doesn't want to be found so I've been living in their house ever since. Everything reminds me of him and it's so hard not to think about him.

Owen left right after the funeral with April, he went back in action. I missed him. His soft welcoming lips. The way he would look at me like I was the only person he cared about. God why did he leave me too?

Addie would call every day a couple of times since she had to go back for an emergency with one of her patients. It was kind of good to have her back but she's so clingy now with the phone calls.

I just got out of a meeting with Charlotte, our last meeting together before she went back to California. She came every so often to be with me but she had to go back with cooper and the kids.

After we said our goodbyes I went to Grey Sloan Memorial because i had a few patients scheduled for surgery today. When I got there i went to find who would be on my service when Richard came up to me.

"Hey, Shepherd you want to go to a meeting with me after your surgeries?" He said to me.

"You know what, no I don't want to go to a meeting with you. I'm tired of everyone wanting to go to a meeting with me. I am fine. I'm trying to do my job and you're stopping me so we're done here alright." I snapped at him.

I lost it. I went off on him. I left him in complete shock and everyone around was staring. I needed to calm down but I can't, how can I? I went to scrub in for the first surgery when Webber walked in and told me he pulled me out and that my surgeries for the day would be taken care of by the new neurosurgeon.
He told me to go home and get some rest and to go to a meeting.

"No." I replied to him.

"Shepherd, what do you mean no? I told you to go home, your surgeries will be covered" Webber said.

"Listen, I'm fine, I'm okay, it's all good! Let me finish! Please stop treating me like a child" I snapped.

"Dr Shepherd, go, leave, NOW. We'll see you tomorrow" he said demanding me this time.

I threw my scrub cap off as I hurriedly went to grab my things. I wasn't paying attention a nurse was calling my name but i ignored it all until I bumped into a familiar face.

As I looked up I saw the man I liked and missed. "O-Owen" I mumbled.

"Amelia! So good to see y--" he started to say.

"Sorry." I said while cutting him off and continued walking.

I was a bit rude but I don't care, how could someone you love leave for a year and not stay in contact. I missed him, I needed him and he wasn't here.

I walked into the attending's lounge and grabbed my purse, I was interrupted by Edwards.

"You okay? You look angry" Steph said.

"Totally okay" I snapped back to her while rolling my eyes and storming out of the room, and out of the hospital.

I found myself walking into Joe's bar and sitting down.
All of these events are just getting to me, I didn't know what to do.

"What would you like to have ma'am" the bartender asked.

I thought about it for a second and was like well shit here goes nothing, "vodka tonic please" I said sternly.

{{ hi I've been wanting to make this since June, had it all types up. Decided to post now, will post another chapter soon, hope you like it! }}