Hello my friends I made this while high as I am still I want whoever reading this to know I do nothing bad to myself I just write. I give you all my peace and love and hope you will make it through the rain if you have it. Enjoy reading, you are angel and I love you friend.
feel bad. I want rain to go away and the sun to shine but it won't. I just want to find the happiness I search for. I get told I am loved and I love them too but hole in heart isn't filled. I feel like I need proud and love but even when tell me I still feel bad. Hole is filled with sad brick that is hanging on by a thread. I want to accomplish something. All I can do is something through screen no matter what. I want to accomplish in real life not through screen. I could get millions of people reading these but only two or three do. Even if it happened it is not accomplishment that make people proud. Mom tells me I have to be smart and get full ride scholarship because we are poor and my smarts is all I have to rely on. I don't get it I am smart but I can't do anything. I try to get food grades but my hardest work is a B minus or plus. I am not smart anymore. I try make people laugh and I thought they laugh with me but they were laughing at me. I can't help I am in love with a woman I just love her. They hate me because who I love so they call me faggot and say hate me when I just try brighten their day. I don't get it. I want to die. I try to spread peace to everyone but I get hate. I accomplish nothing. I am sad lump. I want sun to shine after my rain but it rains harder and harder. I am tired. I wish weight off my shoulders. I have to make sure gpa is high for my mom but I have so much more I want to do. I want to be so much more. I don't want to be a person with boring life who makes a lot of money. I want to enjoy life. I feel like one day I will just wake up, eat, go to work, go home, fall asleep, then repeat. That is a bad bad life and I don't want it. I just want to enjoy it all while I have but it's so hard. I don't get it. I just want an angel to save me.
