Black Whisper

Minjun

Minjun P.O.V

Zane's idea of fixing my problem was not what I had in mind but I was quite happy. We sat at Han River. He chose a quiet place away from everyone. It was starting to get dark already. I hated it. I wish the sun could be out longer.

"Hyung, what are we doing here?" He glimpsed at me and smiled.

"Do you feel better?" I nodded.

"Then I succeeded at my goal" I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry about earlier. I know that all came out of nowhere." He shook his head and wrapped his arm around my waist.

"It's okay. I should have told you a long time ago how I felt. Maybe you wouldn't had to suffer through all of that pain if I did."

"I still would have. I hate all of this. It's been more than two years and I still can't come to accept it." He rubbed my side lightly.

"Why's that, love?"

"Well, it's weird." He chuckled.

"Maybe but you can't help who you fall for. Whether it be one person or three. It's just how life works. This was always going to happen, though. We knew from the beginning that we wouldn't be an ordinary team. This-" He said motioning between us. "Is what makes our team special. So what if we're fucked up? No team is perfect. No matter how perfect we look on camera, we can't and never will be perfect. Do you understand?" I nodded. "And that's okay. There is absolutely nothing wrong with us. Who we love and how we love is no one's business but our own." He pulled away and pressed his hand to my cheek. "You, my love are absolutely perfect just the way you are. Don't ever change." I felt a tear slip down my face.

"I love you." He wiped the tear from my cheek.

"I love you too." I leaned my head on his shoulder again.

"Can I ask you something?" He hummed. "Why wouldn't you sleep with me?" He sighed.

"You would've regretted it." I huffed.

"How would you know that?" His arm tightened around me.

"Because I know and Kat Hyung knows that you want it to be Xiao Hyung. We aren't blind. We know you love us but we also know that you love him and see him differently." I shook my head.

"I love all of you the same."

"Maybe, but you see us all differently. Again, I'm dumb, not blind. You may not want to accept it because you think you'd feel guilty but you won't. He's the one that you want to take your first time. Kat Hyung and I are okay with that. We won't be mad. We live and breathe to make you feel loved and happy. All we want is to make you happy. Kat Hyung would agree with me. We know Xiao Hyung is your person. There is nothing wrong with that. Whoever you want it to be will make it special for you and the other two won't feel an ounce of envy or sadness because that doesn't mean we won't have you too. I mean you gave me your first kiss, right?" I smiled and nodded. "That's enough for me. Let Xiao Hyung and Kat Hyung have their firsts too."

"You really won't be mad?" He kissed my forehead.

"Oh baby, I could never be mad over something like that. You and the guys are my world. I couldn't care less who it is as long as it's one of us. You've already got your mind set on Xiao Hyung. I'm okay with that. I'm positive Kat Hyung will be too."

"I absolutely am." I looked above me and saw Kat with a smile on his face. He sat down beside me and smiled. "So, you gave Zane your first kiss huh?" I nodded and looked down. He chuckled and rested his hand under my chin to look at him. His smile was still there. He leaned in and pressed his lips to mine. They were so soft, softer than I could have ever imagined. The kiss only lasted for a few moments before he pulled away. "There. Now we're even." I turned to Zane who was smiling. It felt weird to kiss Kat in front of Zane but I didn't hate it. I actually loved it. Zane's arm was still around my waist when Kat wrapped his around my neck.

"You are loved unconditionally no matter what. That will never change. I promise." Zane said, nuzzling his nose into my neck. I turned to Kat.

"I promise too." I smiled and watched the rest of the sun fade away. There was silence for a long time after that. It was me who broke the silence.

"Where is Gege?" I turned to Kat.

"I put him on food duty. I made him go get your favorite tteokboki." I frowned.

"That's on the other side of town." He smiled.

"He'll be here soon." Zane stood up.

"I'm gonna go get the blanks and some lights." Kat and I nodded. His arm moved to my waist gently.

"I'm sorry about earlier. That wasn't how I should have told you." He shook his head.

"Don't be. You were frustrated." His other hand landed on my thigh and slid down to my ankle. "And the pain in your ankle didn't help anything." I frowned.

"The pain isn't that bad." He turned his head.

"Don't try to lie. I may need glasses but I see you flinch all the time." I sighed.

"Okay. Maybe, it's not great but I'm handling it." He nodded.

"I know, but don't hide it from us. We hate it more when you try to hide it. You don't want to worry us but by not telling us, we worry more."

"I'm sorry." He shook his head and started rubbing my ankle, carefully. I hummed. I could never understand how his hands could be rough and gentle at the same time. "Maybe we shouldn't have been messing around without telling each other the truth." My eyes closed then.

"Probably not but I think we did it that way because it was a way to be close without changing things."

"I don't like change." He hummed.

"I know but things are going to change. They have changed. All we can do is go with it." My eyes opened when I heard footsteps behind us.

"I know, Hyung."

"Ah, my baby." I smiled at the sound of Xiao's voice. Kat didn't let go of my ankle but he did move his arm from my waist. Zane walked beside him with a smile. They stopped in front of us and sat down. "I come with your favorite food of all time" I sighed. That was where I belonged. In that spot surrounded by my favorite people and the best tteokboki to ever exist. We sat for a long time and talked. We only got up to leave when I started complaining about being cold. Kat decided to go in Zane's car so that I could talk to Xiao. He didn't say anything as he opened my door. He made sure I was comfortable before closing it and walking to the driver's side. He turned on the car and blasted the heat. I grabbed his wrist before he could pull out. He raised a brow.

"Can we talk?" He took his hand off the gear shifter and nodded. "I want to apologize. I know you're gonna say that I did nothing wrong but I still need to apologize. The situation we're in is very unique and I know I have to dread lightly. That's why I'm saying this. You're my person before you're the guy I'm in love with. You're always there when all goes to hell. I need you to know that. I love you with everything I have and I never want to ruin what we have. I'm your world and I know that but please don't forget that. I can't live without you. It's you and me or nothing at all." I didn't notice the tears running down my face till he wiped them away. "You all see me as your everything and I love you guys for it but never ever forget what we have and what you mean to me. You saved me. You ground me. I need you to know that and never forget it." Who would have thought that I'd get the first three kisses of my life in the same day? I never did. Yet, here I was. He kissed me. It wasn't sweet or sensual like Zane and Kat. Xiao's was a promise. It was a promise of everything. It was a promise of his very being belonging to me. That was more than I could have ever asked of him.

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Thanks for reading. I hope everyone liked it. Bye, lovelies.

-Thea