Him & I (Newtmas story)

Chapter 11: We're Gonna Make It, We Have To.

Heyyyy guys, sorry for not posting a lot, I don't want to be that person and say "oh I've just been really busy" or "oh I forgot" or "oh something something" or something like that, but I will say that I have been kinda busy with School and life and stuff. I will try to post as often as I can tho. I will try hard to entertain you guys in this chapter, and thank you so so much for actually reading this, I've been trying this out, it's my first like fanfic, so.......we tryin'. 🩷 Also, thanks for so many reads all ready! I think that's just awesome! Thank you! 🫶 But enough about me, Alright, now, with no further ado, I present Chapter 11!

Thomas's POV:

I followed Newt out of the homestead in disbelief, it was rather unlike him to shout at people. He seemed to be lost in his train of thought, I didn't disturb him yet, I had my own thoughts to deal with too. What if this entire plan fails? What if we lose more people than we already have? what if there's nothing left for us outside of the maze? What if we all die? What if I lose Newt? I'd never be able to live with myself if I lost him, I needed him, and I knew he needed me too. 

"Are you gonna talk to me shank, or are you just gonna fallow me around in silence forever"? The British voice shocked me out of my thoughts. 

"I was waiting for you" I replied, flashing him a smile. 

"Tommy, I know that look, what's on your mind"? he asked thoughtfully. 

We had come to a stop in the middle go the glade, all the other gladers were still in the homestead arguing whether to stay or go. 

"Tommy," he spoke again, his cute accent shining through. "Are you gonna tell me what's wrong"? 

I took a deep breath, "I'm scared Newt, I'm scared of what might happen out there, I'm scared of the thought that there may be nothing outside of this maze, and that we all went through this hell for nothing. I'm afraid of losing more people. Most importantly, I'm scared of losing you, I don't know what I'd do if I lost you".

"Tommy, I know it's scary. I've been In your shoes before. I know this is a lot of pressure, but I believe in you. And don't be worried about me, I can take care of myself pretty well. Trust me". 

I looked into his big, brown, beautiful eyes and nodded my head, "Okay Newt". 

"Alright, I'm going to go make preparations to leave, be ready okay?" He started to walk away, but stopped and turned back to me, "Oh and Tommy, try not to do anything too stupid".

I just smiled and laughed. He then walked away to the map room, searching for the most effective way to escape the maze. I still stood there in the open glade, Newt's words I felt had some deeper meaning than that, but I knew I had to be strong, I couldn't rely on Newt for this one, I had to handle this myself. I steeled myself, erasing any trace of that scared little boy I was 5 minutes ago. I turned and went back to the homestead to try to convince more gladers to join in our escape.  

When I got there, it was an all out dispute. Gally and Minho were both being held back by ganders and other keepers, still screaming at each other. 

"WE STAY"! Gally screamed. 

"NO, WE GO"! Minho screamed right back at him. 

I tried yelling at people the way Newt had, but he had authority that I didn't, so it didn't work. I then started searching around the room for anything I could use that would get people's attention. I found a gong gathering dust in a corner over on the right side of the room, it should work. I  picked it up and struck the gong with enough force to make a loud enough sound, and hopefully not break it. That got people's attention.