A romantic song
That's all it takes.
To make me start transporting myself to the land of my paradise and delusion.
Where everything is perfect and I live the life of my dreams. I am waiting at the airport for your flight to land and to see you coming out of this international exit of Chhatrapati Shivaji Terminal gate "A". My heart is beating faster, and I am paranoid, thinking about the worst and hoping for the best. Like, what if it doesn't pan out the way I expect it to and goes the other way?What if I just made it worse by seeing you in real life and jinxing it all? All the possibilities of getting you ever. I have this, where I live peacefully with you in my mind. When we are dating, we glance and adore each other. You tuck my hair, and I pull your cheeks. "You are so cute, babu. (His family nickname)"I love you already. This is such an anxious feeling of waiting to discover what's next while being prepared for what's coming, which could be terrible for us both. I want you to be mine, but I don't want to possess you. I want to hold you and cherish you, but I will never let go. Currently, I look at you from afar, like I do with cats, with a distant adoration. I fear cats a little, and so do you. What if this gets screwed up in the process of getting more out of you or us? Oh man, please arrive already, because my thoughts are just piling up and processing. It isn't an easy process. It says 10 minutes for your flight to land, but then the exit process, later your baggage, and then my own thoughts: I got you chocolates and flowers. I hope you hug me and kiss me, because that's my airport fantasy to do with you and just you. We might not end up together, but those feelings and excitement I get when I think of us being together as cute couples are everything to me. Oh my god, how long have you been here already? Let me see your bearded face and unkept hair because of all the exhaustion of traveling. I am going to sow these emotions of being with you until you reach this airport. I guess I am actually sure about it, as well as the other part of it. What if it did work well? Will we actually go on dates and live the life I imagined for so many years?Fuck yeaaahhh!!!! (It's an expression from the series I watch called "The Ranch.")
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The delusional diary of a girl
RomanceThe story is told by a girl who is madly in love with a person she will never be able to have or date in real life, so she pursues him in her deceived world.
