Lights Are Missing : beomjun/yeongyu ‼️

4.

When I set my lunch tray down at the table, I sat myself down slowly at the same table I'd been sitting at since freshman year. The food on my tray had looked appetizing a minute ago, but seeing it then, I wanted to throw it out.

Never in a million years had I wanted my sister to go back to high school. I wished she was there with me again so I didn't get such weird stares as the only guy who sat alone. At least in that section of the cafeteria.

I pushed the tray away from me, hoping that in 10 minutes I'd be hungry enough to eat it. I placed my elbows on the table, plopping my head in the palms of my hands as I scanned the cafeteria. I loved people watching. My sister and I would always stare out at the cafeteria and point out silly things we'd see people do. But once she graduated, I was forced to sit and watch people alone.

Her graduation made me cry. Not only did I have to watch her finally take a big step in her life, but also Haruna, and all of the other people she'd talked about like Han and Mai. People I'd heard about but never met until the day of graduation.

Her class decided to all do something before they graduated though. They all camped out on the football field a week before walking the stage to get their diplomas. When she came home the next day, I swear, I could see stars in her eyes. I'd never seen her so happy and yet so longing at the same time.

I'll never forget her words to me that day. She told me to never wait because you never know who the right people are until it's too late.

Younger me waved it off, thinking she was just trying to be philosophical since she was older and graduating, but as I matured, I realized that she was right. Very, very, recently, I'd realized she was right.

People were some of the most important things in my life. The people around me are what made me Beomgyu. They were the things that gave me a reason.

"Beomgyu!" I whipped my head around, leaving my elbows up on the table. Behind me, I saw Soobin, Kai, Yeonjun and Taehyun all running towards me. My heart skipped a beat, butterflies filling my stomach.

I felt a smile appear on my face. I couldn't even control it. It had just happened without any thought. That had been happening a lot since yesterday. Other than last night of course.

"You guys have this lunch?" I asked as I dropped my hands to my lap. Since we had a lot of kids, lunch was split into 2 lunch periods. I had the second one. I guess they did too. I'd never really realized though.

Kai placed his tray down on the table and sat beside me. The other guys joined in and sat down around the small table, "Yeah, we just always sit outside or right next to the exit. It's too cold out and some girls took our table since somebody took forever at his locker." Soobin shot his eyes over to Taehyun who just shrugged.

"Well hey, it was a good thing I did because now we get to sit with Beomgyu." Taehyun chuckled as he started to shove the food in his mouth. My smile never left my face.

They all started talking about whatever, I didn't pay much attention. I was zoned out, staring out at the cafeteria. It was almost second hand nature for me, a habit that I'd grown accustomed to over the years and it wasn't going to change just because they were sitting with me.

A hand on my shoulder caused me to finally pull my eyes away from the cliques of laughing kids as I made eye contact with Yeonjun who was next to me, "You alright? You staring at someone?"

Quickly, I shook my head as his hand dropped down from my shoulder, "I'm fine, and no I just like people watching."

He nodded, looked down at his food, then over at my tray that was pushed to the middle of the table, "Are you gonna eat that?"