Yoongi knows that this is his fault.
His heartbreak is self inflicted, and all because he decided to permanently bench you within the confines of The Friendzone™
But, at the same time, he didn't have a choice in the matter up until you both were out of school. With him being the best friend of your older brother, Minho, who would quite literally end someone for you if they upset you in any kind of way.
Minho and Yoongi weren't that much older than you, just by roughly eighteen months, but with how your brother treated you it seemed as though you were at the very minimum five years younger. But then again, everyone was friends with both the infamous Lee Siblings™ along with your cousin, who was estranged for many years due to your aunt and uncle uprooting before Felix was even conceived, sure they visited but it was mostly during the summer, and only for about a month and a half, two if everyone was lucky with schedules and everything else.
Yoongi loved hanging out with Minho, and the rest of the boys, don't get him wrong. But he also enjoyed spending time with you, maybe it was meant to be like that just to torture the poor guy. The universe having him fall for his best friend's little sister was not something he expected, and he wasn't sure if it was in his favor or if the odds were against him. You see, he doesn't know what came over him that faithful White Day two years ago, when you brought him a batch of your city-wide famous brownies and kissed his cheek. But he hurt you.
Not physically. Or Mentally.
But he absolutely shattered your heart, leaving you with a typical warm hug; albeit a little shorter than usual, and throwing a "Thanks bitsy, you're the best little sister an Oppa could ask for." over his shoulder as it began to rain outside. It was fitting, really. And well deserved. Just like the absolute cold shoulder from Minho, Chan, Namjoon, and Changbin who all had a genuine older brother younger sister dynamic. The fact that Yoongi had rejected you was not the problem, no, it was how he went about the rejection itself. You told him that you loved him, staring up at him with those bright, galaxy filled eyes and he almost. . . almost lost all restraint and kissed you until your breath was sufficiently gone. But then the war of you being his best friend's flesh and blood related, biological, younger sister ruined that moment. He felt like it would be wrong for him to actually be with you, despite the encouragement from everyone in the group including Minho. Which shocked not only Yoongi himself, but literally everyone else, minus you of course since you were, and still are painfully oblivious to Yoongi's feelings.
So, he did what The Min Suga was known to do, he swerved you. Which wouldve been fine, if he hadn't called you what your older brother and at least three of the other boys call you out of the habit of keeping you close as their baby sister, their angel, their princess, light of their lives even. He knows he fucked up, and he knows it's never going to be the same.
Which is why it's such a bittersweet moment, the way you're sitting close to him with his guitar laying across your lap in your grasp fully. He creates a sweet melody, plucking at the strings almost lazily as you hum along, keeping your mutual habit between the two of you, Perfect Pitch. Not many people have this ability, which isn't surprising in the least. It was just something that both of you have had for seemingly forever. It's why you chose choir, and why he was in charge of producing and composing different pieces for the entirety of the music departments.
"You're off key, bitsy." he snorts, messing around with you after purposely messing up on a note.
"Uh, no I'm not, pabo. Maybe if you'd pluck the right notes, we'd be in sync, no?" you bite back at him immediately, rolling your eyes playfully.
"Bitsy, i was just joking around, i swear. No need to pop that vein in your forehead." he stuck his tongue out at you childishly which caused you to, in return, pinch his arm.
"YAH! Brat." he feigned anger, but you both knew that he was joking around.
After you both were done with your respective laughing fits, your phone chimed with a new text. You glanced at the screen and then smiled.
"Okay, Yoongles, Woo is here to pick me up. You and Oppa have fun tonight! I'll be home later. Don't wait up." You stood from your place on the couch in your den, smoothed down your dress, quickly checked your makeup in the mirror by the door and then walked out the front door.
Yoongi couldn't help the wave of disappointment that washed over him. You looked so beautiful tonight. You always do, even barefaced and in your old worn out pajamas. He sighed and scrunched his nose up, hating that he's feeling this way.
"Quit your moping, loser. It's your fault she's dating Wooyoung now, you know?" Minho nudged his best friend with a snort.
"Yeah, yeah, I know. Just sucks, Min. I really thought you'd crucify me if I made a move on your little sister." he frowned as he said it, meaning every single word as it left his mouth.
Your brother plopped down on the couch next to him and sighed, shaking his head.
"You shouldn't have assumed, Yoons. You think I didnt know how you two looked, well, no look at each other?"
"No way, it's definitely looked in her case, bro." Yoongi started to strum random cords on the aforementioned guitar.
"Idiot. Fool. Dumbass. Those all are what you are, Min Yoongi. I should slap the shit out of you for that." he scoffed that whole sentence out before the front door opened, and a disheveled you re-entered the house.
"Hey princess, you just left, why are you home so soon?" Minho got up and walked over to you, confusion written all over his features.
Tears started staining your cheeks before you clung to your brother.
"W-Wooyoung and I. . . are o-over."
Yoongi's heart shattered at the sound of your voice, so small and sad. He got up and walked over to you both and patted your head.
"He's a fucking idiot for dumping you." Yoongi scoffed out before taking your arms from around Minho and hugging you himself. Your brother isn't one for hugs, and especially when he's as angry as he is in this present moment.
"I'm the fucking idiot for t-thinking it would l-last, he's in love with his best friend apparently."
Yeah, Yoongi can relate to that. In a way, anyways.
"Aish, I'm gonna fuckin' pummel him." was all your brother growled out before rushing out the front door. But not before kissing the top of your head, of course.
"Woo also told me that. . ."
Yoongi squished your face in his hands and shook his head.
"Lets not think about some dumbass right now, okay? I'll call Jimin over and we can bake some brownies and have a movie night, yeah?"
You just nodded and sniffled. He wordlessly wiped your tears away with his hoodie sleeve before pulling his phone out to dial the other male.
"Yoongles, I still love you." is what you said once he had stepped away to call Jimin.
Min Yoongi's broken heart is no one's fault but his own.
But you'll mend it one day.
When he lets you.
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Melodies of The Heart // Min Yoongi x Fem!Reader
FanfictionYoongi is dealing with his inner turmoil of watching you go through a break up, when he knows he could've prevented it to begin with. You just want to love him, but he refuses to believe that his love isn't one sided.