BRUTAL

I want it to be, like, messy
I'm so insecure, I thinkThat I'll die before I drinkAnd I'm so caught up in the newsOf who likes me and who hates youAnd I'm so tired that I mightQuit my job, start a new lifeAnd they'd all be so disappointed'Cause, who am I, if not exploited?And I'm so sick of 17I'm over this teenage dream?If someone tells me one more time"Enjoy your youth", I'm gonna cryAnd I don't stick up for myselfI'm anxious and nothing can helpAnd I wish I'd done this beforeAnd I wish people liked me moreAll I did was try my bestThis the kind of thanks I get?Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)They say these are the golden yearsBut I wish I could disappearEgo crush is so severeGod, it's brutal out here(Yeah)
I feel like no one wants meAnd I hate the way I'm perceivedI only have two real friendsAnd lately, I'm a nervous wreck'Cause I love people I don't likeAnd I hate every song I writeAnd I'm not cool and I'm not smartAnd I can't even parallel parkAll I did was try my bestThis the kind of thanks I get?Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)They say these are the golden yearsBut I wish I could disappearEgo crush is so severeGod, it's brutal out here(Yeah)(Just having a really good time)Got a broken ego, broken heart(It's brutal out here, it's brutal out here)And God, I don't even know where to start